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RWBY. But make it Grey’s Anatomy.

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An assessment of me rn:

A peak, Trauma, depression, anxiety, and etc. Maybe I underestimated them. I really don't talk about what's really deep in my mind. I am supposed to be happy. I am supposed to be the smiling figure. I have been impatient and irritable. There are things I cannot enjoy like I used to. It frustrates me so much for what the reasons are. I don't draw anymore like I used to. I start, overthink, compare, then ask myself what's the point. A repeated process that also contains some of the reasons that frustrate me. Recently, only one game title has taken my interest and I haven't felt that in a long time.. However, it's finished and done. Even older ones that I liked before I am having a hard time. Assassin's Creed for example. I don't have the same energy for things. I had planned on completely rearranging my room. Sometimes getting out of bed is difficult. I push everyday. I had been having trouble pouring out of my empty cup to people who are really hurting and I would always do that. I didn't think a trauma response would kick in or that it was wrong?? I don't think it's about being a threat it's about comfort and just what not to do. I have just been pushing and pushing everyday. Responding that I am okay when I only probably ate once that day and lack appetite for the rest. There is a lot more but I know it has been bad before and I will crawl out and deal with it myself, but I needed to write.

I have to do something different.

#venting #personal #i needed a release

4 year progress going down the drain. Sorry.

#I needed a release #fuck my life

I had nightmares all night. I can't stop thinking about them. I'm trying so hard to be a positive person, but I always fall backwards. I never have words to say anymore. It's like the universe is never in my favor. I feel like I have so many thoughts and I need to write them all out, but I can't. I go to write this post and I cannot think of all those things I wanted to write. I feel sick; I feel apathetic. I feel afraid. I feel worried and hopeless. But I always try to hide it. I always want to take care of the people I need to and not worry about myself. But as I'm helping people, I feel myself needing help too. And I never know how to ask for it. I shouldn't feel bad about it. I shouldn't feel bad for crying or sharing my emotions. For so long I never did those things and to finally feel like it's not a weakness is great. But I still don't know how to share it. I don't know how to let people know I'm hurting. I'm so good at keeping everything tightly held in that when it hits me, I go down. I'm afraid to say anything because it's the usual "it'll be okay" or "it'll get better". I need someone to actually say something to me other than those words. I have no clue why I'm typing all of this. It doesn't make sense. But I guess I've been bleeding for so long that I forgot it hurts. It hurts.

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