#i'm almost crying

[noosedissident]

Everyonce in a while I start thinking about season 1 of dndads being over and I just feel sad inside. Like i'm grieving. Fuck my overdeveloped sense of connection to fictional characters.

[borderlands-disorder]

you ever go momentarily insane(r) and try to draw something?

[ichtios]

21.08.2024

Guys, yesterday I felt joy for the first time since the beginning of this summer. Looks like God is already doing more than I could imagine, though it is still in the midst of such pain.

I told you that I am planning my escape, because I no longer see myself staying in this place where I've suffered so much. I've lived here since 2012 and only the first short period was happy, then all slowly went down the toilet, with very few breaks.

I wanted to leave city because I never loved it, I stayed here because of work, of people, of anxiety disorder that kept me stuck.

One of the options was the little summer house, owned by my mom's friend (we know each other since forever, and I call her "aunt"). I always liked it, it is small, and only ground floor. But my mom, and aunt said that it is impossible to live in because of very bad condition of the place (over 40 years old, practically abandoned wooden house), and it is probably only good for demolition and maybe building new one (which is complicated ofc)

Yesterday I went there to see it with guys from renovation company. They said the house is great, well built, and they would never recommend demolition, they want to renovate it, even to the point that I will be able to stay there during cold months.

The state of the house is indeed like from horror movies, I've never seen such huge spiderwebs, there is ant nest in one wall, and traces of mice everywhere. But there seems to be no fungus, which is most important, because that would make it unsafe. I can deal with the rest.

When I entered the gate yesterday and was opening the house alone I started to smile involuntarily. It was good sign. I didn't feel daunted or terrified, I felt that my heart adheres to this place.

I will show you photos on Friday. I'm still in tons of pain, and I'm scared of staying there alone (maybe God will also provide that I won't be alone, but for now that is the only option). But I have something to look for, to plan, to decorate, to clean. And beautiful nature that greets me with an open arms.

[csnunes]

That hurts! It's been almost 2 years in this challenge, and now the last generation is gone! Thank you Not So Berry for re-teaching me how to play the sims, and opening doors for me to other gameplays!

[beadickel]

who is this man what's his insta

😳😳😳

*insert here an old hollywood actor or a xx century scientist*

[game-set-canet]

I talked with Carlos!! "Talking" like: I was rambling stupid things in a mix of Spanish and English and he was nodding, smiling and said "Thank you, gracias" at the end 😭😭😭

[thorniest-rose]

Just got paid so I’ve treated myself to a year-long subscription to JSTOR... hnghnghh hnghhhh hnnnnngnggg

[angelic-softwares]

HOLY SHIT I JUST REALISED JACK LOOKS LIKE A OMPA LOMPA