@dogfearing , meme , “Why are you — saying all these things??? Where did they come from???”
she can’t tell him they’ve bubbled , like acid in the lining of her throat. sat dormant for so long that. . . she isn’t sure who she’ll be without their constant pressure. it’s the underlying cause of her nature. words so dark they burned a hole through her light. snuffed it out because she needed to survive. “ they’ve always been there. you just weren’t listening. ” cruel without apologies. if she pushes him away now , that’s the last of the damage she can do to him. throwing away their friendship is a means of keeping him safe. he’ll understand one day. “ we have to stop pretending. this is the way it’s always been and. . . trying to change was a waste of time. ”