Sometimes I wonder how many trans people I've met or passed by without knowing it.
By that I obviously don't mean I'd ever want to out them or anything like that, but that I wonder how many people are out there whose experiences I have something in common with, but I'd never know it. If you rode the bus with me, if you passed me by on the street, there'd be no way for you to know that I'm trans, in the weird genderfluid way that I am.
So I wonder about others: how many people have I passed that I could have this connection with, that I could share frustrations and experiments and questions with, people who are like me, but because of our stupid, frustrating society, we can't take the risk of being open enough about it to know of each other's existence?
How many people who could gain something from a connection have I passed by? How many people have passed me by, and never known?
I don't know, sometimes I'm on the bus and I wonder.