thoughts for the day: solitude
This past few days were so busy and so may things are in my mind.
Aside from having troubles accomplishing requirements for work, I'm also having troubles with my close friends. I mean, I understand that each of us have different plans but at least a little communication is what I'm asking for. No texts. No e-mails. No nothing. I mean, they don't even 'pop-out' with our meet-ups or little gatherings. In the end, I either ended up with no one to talk to or to be with or I ended up with some of my other classmates/friends.
Sometimes, I ask myself these questions: Why is this happening? Are friends supposed to be until graduation only? Are we really friends, who helps and be there for each other? Am I just expecting too much? Aren't you supposed to expect because they're your friends? I confronted this with my mom and she said that maybe they're not meant for me. That maybe when I'll find work, maybe there I'll find a TRUE friend that's meant for me. Awww.
Good thing I have a talent of finding means to be strong and optimistic (still). Sometimes I do a lot of chores at home to keep my mind busy. Watching Jdramas helps too. Watching Rich Man, Poor Woman reaaalllly makes me feel better and inspired as well. It keeps me feel positive about things. Playing Pokemon Adventure Games and keeping up with my Instagram account helps me be occupied too. And of course, listening to music. Music is a safe haven for me. Anything I would like to listen, I'd randomly listen. Particularly, I keep listening to miwa's Hikari E and AKFG songs. Yes, I keep replaying Solanin on my playlist.
I think this is reality.
That sometimes you need to face life alone.
Someday I'll understand things a lot better.
Oh well. Just a thought.