Another piece of my heart.
When a relationship ends no matter how short or long it was, both people hurt not just one. Why stay together when you are searching for different things? I want kids, you have two already and don't want anymore? I believe in God and a greater power, you tell me you think it's bullshit, corrupt and irrelevant. To me that means you are telling me that part of me is bullshit, corrupt and irrelevant. I never cared that your childhood was filled with anger, DHS, CPS and losing your family because your parents didn't want you. But for you to use that as an excuse at the age of 27 for your lack of commitment/family values/you're not a 'baby person' is weak.
To characterize me by where I live is also weak. Yes I live in rural Iowa and not in a city. I like my small towns and close-nit communities. I'm sorry that you don't like it, but you moved here not me. I've lived here my entire life. And to say that people around here are all the same? I take that as a complement. We have values and morals and a sense of self-worth. You have all those qualities too but in different proportions and quantities.
I can't be with someone who yells at me for believing in God and Jesus and all that entails. You looked at me with disappointment when I said I wanted kids. You made me feel insufficient and I didn't like it. You were technically still married and when I told you that it mattered to me, you told me that I was stupid. I didn't feel loved when I was with you. And the fact that we had been together for a while and my sister calls to tell me that you messaged her on OkCupid wasn't ok. You told me once that everyone in your life had used you. You said that you don't like people who use others, but you used me.
It's in the past now, as Rafiki says in The Lion King, "The past can hurt, but you can either run from it or learn from it." I'm choosing to learn from the time we had together. I hope and I pray that you find someone who loves you and treats you well.