who: rahim and victoire / @nchanting
where: st. mungo’s
His status as a Healer had been enough that the security guards had let Rahim move unheeded through the wards. How easy it had been made it feel like more of a trangression. A betrayal. He shouldn’t be here. He wasn’t assigned here, that was for sure, but more than that, seeing Neville Longbottom’s chest rise and fall made him feel cold inside. Though part of him wanted to be relieved at the sight of him still alive, the other part was thinking that if the man was just dead, this would be over. Rahim would have peace.
He should be dead. Rahim’s curse would have killed him, if not for Lydia Longbottom. So now he knew that he was capable of it. His father knew it. And Bellatrix, too. The shudder that should have come before, at seeing the not-quite-dead-at-his-hands body in the hospital bed, was here at that. Her moments of clear-minded sanity were more off-putting than anything else, and he could see the sharp glint in the whites of her eyes in his memory now. She’d said she was proud of him. It still made him feel sick. But there’d been worse orders to come. Finish the job. She’d been right - it had been easy for him to get here, a Healer in a hospital, Healing robes the camouflage of a killer. No better infiltration of St. Mungo’s existed. You’ve already done it, he reminded himself again. His hands picked up Longbottom’s chart, just for something to do, for a reason, if anyone walked by, to be standing here, struck motionless as if Rahim was the one who’d been struck by a curse. He would have killed him before. He could have. He did. And Professor Longbottom was even more defenceness now than before.
In fact, from where Rahim was standing, he looked dead already. It was like permission. Like it was fait accompli. There was nobody to save Neville, no Lily Potter blazing down a path of fiery retribution to still his hand. She hated him already, wanted him dead, as he now knew without a doubt - nothing would change that. This wouldn’t change that. There was nothing to stop him this time. Except ... he was still wearing his Healing robes.










