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[evey-ya]

Hi... 👋 it’s been a really long time since I posted (years) Life kind of got in the way, and then I didn’t really feel like coming back when they got rid of the pron (I also had a nsfw blog so)

But now I’m here, much older and happy to be back - if you’ll have me 👀

[imagirlwithamedicalgreyzone]

6/4/18 Post

Hey I’m back!!

I so sorry for not posting when I said I would, I’m figuring out that I just need to promise to post whenever I can. So that’s what I’m gonna promise to do :) I hope that doesn’t offend anyone it’s still gonna be at least once a month, but I can’t seem to keep myself to a set schedule and I’m sorry.

So now that I’m done with that I’ll catch you guys up and then I’ll share some things that I’ve been figuring out :) and FYI you all are amazing and so FUCKING badass!

So catch up time; finally figured out what’s going on with this cancer thing (yay!). So basically I do have cancer and it’s doing nothing right now it’s just kinda sitting in my thyroid which is a bit of a mind fuck but idk. But for right now it’s thyroid ultrasounds every six months and taking it as it comes :) and I’m doing really good.

Also started this new medicine that’s meant to help me with my pain and AVM in my left forearm. It’s a blood pressure medicine so I have to acclimate my body to it and that’s been a F’d up process to say the least. So to start me on it the doctors had me doing a half dose of what the intended dose is, which I acclimated too fine. I got a little dizzy for one day and that was it.

But with the full dose, let me tell ya it through my body for a LOOP. It basically raised my pain, I was dizzy and my brain fog was awful for days. and I am just now coming off of it on day 8 of this medicine. It’s worth it but OMG I’m having a hard time reminding myself of that ughh.

But yeah, I’m coming cruising back to natural :)

And on to the life lessons I’ve been learning: So first life lesson I’ve been learning and sorta the hardest and I hope me telling you this and my experience with it will help one of you. But anyways, I’ve been learning that it’s ok to except defeat and come back and kick it’s ass in a different way. Meaning if your body isn’t working with you, let it. But only for a minute/hour/day/week until you have a plan to come back and work around it and kick it’s ass. Because I know we all can do that <3 we are all beautiful badasses <3

Second life lesson is always remember to do the stuff you love. And I think that one’s pretty self explanatory. Always always make time for a little self love’n. Wether it be watching some Netflix with a carton of your favorite ice cream or drinking some awesome tea outside while listening to your favorite playlist. Or doing your preferred form of art <3