#iamaweretoad

[darkfire1177]

🧪 for Akari - how do you really feel about the band?

HERE WE FUCKING GO THANK YOU!! 🧡

Truth serum asks

Akari goes stiff for a minute, hands cleanched at her sides and teeth gritted tight as she tries to fight against genuinely answering. Eventually she screams, hands flying up to tear at her hair.

"I hate them," the words slip out easily, like the release being turned on a dam. "Seven was their friend too and what they did...FUCK them!! She didn't deserve that. They didn't even tell me and just sat back content to watch the one good relationship in my life go up and fucking flames for what? So they could feel like they made a good fucking business choice? I thought we were band, a fucking team. They don't care. They can't. Not when Seven clearly meaned so little to them. No way in hell I'm any more important, how long before they get sick of me and kick me to the curb to? So I gotta play nice and happy little lead singer and behave so I don't get hung out to fucking dry. Its all 'oh for the band', 'we're in this together', 'Akari you're the lead singer and leader but we're gonna disagree and undermine anything you say' and 'we've got each other's backs' no the fuck you don't. None of you do, none of you, and if you did you wouldn't have betrayed Seven like that and you wouldn't bad mouth her still or let me take the fall for that bullshit fucking vote I knew nothing about. I expected better from Jazzy. Now I gotta walk on eggshells half the time because apparently we decide at random to ruin friendships that spanned multiple years for arbitrary reasons. And if they kick me out I'll have no one. I gotta tell them everything like I'm reporting in or some shit. They get mad or annoyed at little things it feels like im fucking suffocating. Do you have any idea how much all of this fucked with my head? We were FRIENDS. Its not fucking fair! I don't get it! And now I have a chance to fix things and they're going off the fucking rails why cant they be happy for me? Its my fucking life fucking hell they're worse then my parents. I know i loved them at one point, it had to be real we all had so much fun together. We made a band and wanted to make it big. I dont get it! I still blame myself for what happened but they aren't fucking immune. They ruined my life. They did that. Broke me and pushed me to edges I said I'd never get back to. I think I used to be happy. Enjoyed doing this. It isnt the same. It isnt fun anymore and I'm gonna fuckin quit after this bullshit tour and its all on them. Music is the only thing im worth anything for and I cant even have that anymore. It all just hurts. How could they do this to us? To Seven? To me?"

[b33tlejules]

Honor Bound ate my entire weekend and i blame you XD. Thanks for the rec! Also, would love to hear more about Parel! 👀 How did their run go? (only if you want to share, no pressure!)

Aaa this got buried in my inbox!! but YAY I'm glad the rot has spread!!

This is my beautiful butch Parel Tanse (they/them), former field medic in their late 30's who got severe head trauma from trying to save civilians </3

Traditional doodle i colored on my phone for fun <3

Honor Bound spoilers below vvv

Here's the summary I sent @localcryptic when he asked me how my run went:

Got initially really close with Matia (she/her), cuddlin and kissin n shit. She taught Tanse more about mechanics, and in turn Tanse has been helping out more around the school grounds. They then realize "Heyyyyy Nezrah (also she/her) you're kinda. yknow" and Nezrah's like "lieutenant......" and then they slowburn for a while. And then Tanse gets fucked up while helping clean up after the earthquake and has to do a Hospital Bedside Confession (just like fallen hero fr) because Matia's like. "Hi the vibes. The vibes are saying we should all date." And now Military Autistic #1 and #2 with their ray of sunshine former explorer maybe cannibal all decide "Yeah. We gay." And then Nezrah drags Tanse into the pesticide stuff, Tanse is lowkey leading Fiore (milf) on but they genuinely care for her and Catarina. So it breaks their heart when they have to lie to Fiore's face and then leave in the middle of the night with smuggled pesticides. Nezrah gets promoted to an Elite, while Tanse decides to turn down that promotion and quit the army on a high note. They go back to being a security guard at the school, Fiore and Savarel aren't talking to Tanse anymore (WAAAA), and the polycule is relatively unharmed by the war crimes (Matia is still left in the dark about it, but she doesn't seem to mind too bad). It's a bittersweet ending tbh

TLDR: Nezrah/Tanse/Matia lesbian polycule real. I feel SO BAD about messing up Tanse's relationship with Fiore but oh well.

[kidhellion]

Congrats on the Radar! :D Every time it pops up on my dash I'm like

im like !YAAAYYYY!!!

[queer-ragnelle]

Gaheris! (for the vulgate ask)

The Merlin Continuation: 54. Gaheriet Sets Out, Followed by Agravain

Send me a character and I'll reply with a Vulgate passage!

[lehdenlaulu]

🔥 for either S&B or video game of your choice

Unpopular S&B opinions, eh? 😁

Probably most of them, honestly, since I've not read the books and therefore have no particular attachments to how things are in them.

But while opinions vary in a crossover fandom as big as this, I can't think of many that are more unpopular than being 100% cool with the show throwing Tolya in with the Crows, including the hints at a little something with Inej (and Kaz??). Honestly, I think the whole thing might be a genius move, and as of now, I'm not the least bit worried that it will lead to some convoluted love triangle bullshit.

Even Tolya's implied possible book canon aroaceness doesn't feel like an issue to me. I mean, I'm very much on both of those spectrums myself and I actually did kind of vibe with show Tolya on that level even before learning about that one line in the books that hints at it. I mean... that's Lewis Tan. He could have brought hella smolder to the screen. Instead, Tolya just had the absolute safest, warmest, chillest vibes, and his interest in Inej feels very much based on respect and admiration. It makes sense to pair him with Inej, who comes with plenty of trauma and complication and would not be well-suited for virtually anyone else. Especially since Kaz, her first choice, is clearly not ready to be what she wants him to be yet.

And I mean, personally... I might never have been in love and be generally perfectly content without a romantic/sexual relationship, but if I ever find someone I really click with, I'm not going to be mad about it, am I? Why would he be? I understand that we're not all the same and that some of us would like to see the kind of representation where a character has zero interest in any kind of even remotely romantic or sexual entanglement, but... since it's a spectrum, we are not all the same, so no matter what, no aspec representation will ever be able to represent all of us.

And then there's the part where at least a part of the fandom seems to be mad about this because they view Inej as Kaz's exclusive property. Which... is pretty mind-boggling to me, all things considered, but I guess I shouldn't be surprised. These attitudes die hard. But like... isn't it better if she goes be free for a while, grows and heals and finds herself for a bit, and then eventually returns to Kaz of her free will with a new Crow in tow? Would you rather she stick around out of guilt and duty and wallow in an unhappy, currently unresolvable situation?

I understand very well that book fans are attached to how things are in the books, but this has been a different story from the beginning, hasn't it? And I repeat: Tolya could be the best thing that ever happened to show Kanej. Not a threat but a possibility. I mean it.

[retrogradedreaming]

🔴Red 🟦Blue 💜Purple ☂️No-Pressure-Lavender

Red - I love you and your blog. (thank you!!)

Blue - You’re funny. (slkjfd this is nice because I never know how my humor comes across in posts or if it does at all)

Purple - Your posts make my day better. (!!! this makes me so happy to know)

Lavender - I want to be your friend. (okay but same!! I love seeing you in my notifs and the times we've talked about characters and stuff and am totally down to be friends)

[doublebadger]

3 (past), 5 and 10 (present), 1 (future) for our favorite angry bird :D

Past 3: Describe their family. Who raised them, and who had the most impact on them? Did they have any siblings? Who were they closest to? What were the family dynamics like? Her mother’s family fled the Steppes of Arazeal when she, Lyra, was nearly full grown. She married Karl out of necessity after her parents succumbed to the unknown diseases of Nehrim. Karl, son of Johan, was well-intentioned and even kind, at first. He needed a wife and children to help him run the family farm. He was a pious man, as he was raised to be. He attended the new priest’s sermons, as his father has attended the old priest’s sermons. He was faithful, but something was wrong. Though he made regular offerings at the shrines and at the temple, the old farm was failing. He spent more and more time in worship, seeking the blessing of the Creator. His whole family joined him in the requisite practices, and though it was never enough, their penitence pleased him. Lyra tried to give Wren and Catherine the childhood she had. Flowers in their hair, adventures foraging in the woods, and stories about all the stars in this foreign sky. Children need stories. They need them to learn how to hope. They need them to learn when and where to hide.

Present 5: What kind of people do they usually interact with? Who are their friends, the people they look up to/trust, and who are their “associates”? Once Wren gets to Enderal, even with all the pressure from her newfound abilities and unwanted importance, she is building a new family. Lishari, Calia, Bushybeard- they are all a kind of family now. They have been kind to her, and she is loyal to them. When she’s saved up enough to buy the house in the market, she’s excited to start inviting these people over for her very edible dinners. She does not care for Arantheal’s vibes. Most of the Order is relegated to “business associate” status. …I realize now that I could have answered this question a lot faster by just telling you that she’s an aquarius.

Present 10: What do they always carry with them and why? A bit of money and a knife, though the knife is more widely useful. A pipe, for she is not without vices. A trinket to remind her of her first family, though it is not original to them. Some dried fruit and nuts, for snacking and sharing with birds. Fletcher’s tools, and lockpicks. Soap that smells of juniper. A lock of Thaizo’s hair and a small pouch of Jespar’s smoking stuffs, for when she misses their scents (Thaizo belongs to @zomnas, of course).

Future 1: Briefly describe their life in the future, regardless of how far into the future this is. She is mist. She walks through dreams. She bargains with beings older than time. She looks for hope and uses it to fan the flicker of humanity remaining in her. She hunts.

[chelsdavisart]

...I have given him too much power. I was aiming for “knife cat” and landed somewhere around “glamoured trickster god.” Oops. Happy birthday, @iamaweretoad, it’s a feral catboy.