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Looking back

12.March.2017

Hi… It’s Kivi!

I know that some of the march study challenge questions I have not been able to do this week. However I will do my best in continuously trying to post as often as I can. With the midterms coming up I can feel the nerves coming in. Which is why today’s question is very suitable. Let’s all try to focus on the positive in these dark times. (the march challenge is made from the studyblr @littlestudyblrblog with the hashtag #marchstudychallenge)

#13

What is your best school memory?

- My most precious memories comes from working studying very much and then succeeding which is an amazing feeling. I remember in 9th grade that we had to write a story about a subject. I worked really hard wrote and made up a story and when I finally presented it. My teacher loved it. It raised my whole grade. I recently found the story and when I read it, it was a really fun read. It was definitely not bad but it had some mistakes though it was a really advanced story for a girl that had just turned 15 years old. Looking back at something I made for myself was really mind blowing and amazing.

I guess school is an interesting place since it is a place of growth. From being a child to slowly being a more knowledgeable human being. That is why I also have a lot of memories of playing outside with my friends or eating in the cafeteria. All of this is precious and it is what made me who I am today. The memory above was just a snippet of 18 years where I spent more of half a my life in school. More memories are slowly building up now in university instead of school… that is why let’s all just enjoy everyday and now, the many hours of studying, crying and laughing, being at the very bottom and very top.

edit: I accidentally posted tomorrows question but that’s okay I guess (*embarrassed*) Today’s post can be viewed here 

[iamkivi]

Moral support and admiration

14.March.2017 Hi... It's Kivi! Today I am writing this on my phone so the style will be simple 😄 #14 Q: Black or blue ink? - Without thinking the answer would be BLACK however this is a bit of a controversy thinking about my daily usage of black ink... which is low. Unexpectedly low, thinking about how I love black ink. I guess the black ink was viewed as my more "valuable" pens since the majority of pens I had were and still is of blue ink. So to get rid of (know it is horrible thinking like this) the blue ink I used it more often. The black ink was in my pen case as (mental) moral support and admiration, there if needed but only if necessary, or when I had bad days and wanted a upgrade from the blue ink. That is why BLUE ink would be the correct answer since it was I use on a daily basis - my to-go-to pen. A little reminder tho : It does not matter what kind of pen you use, what matters is what you use it for and what you write with the pen. Have a great day everyone!

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5.March.2017

Hi...It’s Kivi,

and sometimes...

...I don’t sleep well since I am worried about what’s to come.

...I procrastinate even though I know what I am supposed to be doing.

...I don’t clean my room and it becomes a huge mess.

...I study for hours and still feeling that i got nothing done.

...I dream more than I achieve them.

...I cry for things that is not necessary.

...I give up only to pick myself back up.

...I sleep late.

...I sleep in.

Sometimes I...

sleep, letting the world do its job.

cry tears of joy after the worst part is done.

sigh in relief.

jump in joy.

stretch my body after along study session.

It is not easy to dream, to hope and to feel. The want to achieve so badly that it hurts within. That feeling is stronger than anything I would like to say. The many downsides of not knowing will bring tears of joy when not knowing becomes something that you have actually learnt. Tumblr is a space where many conflicted or put-together people join to help achieve goals. To have a space were hate is thrown away instead positivity is the main goal, that is what we need more of in life. Having a studyblr or just following them is one step closer to your goal. - You have decided that studying will be a goal. To study is NOT easy it is damn difficult. But learning is beautiful even if the process is not. Taking a picture of your best study time is awesome but it is not always the case. Rather is I would say it is rare or you are doing something wrong :D.

This is the #5 question of @littlestudyblrblog march challenge where I spoke more about the hashtag #studyblrsgetreal 

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1 march 2017

Hi... It’s Kivi!

Today I did not go to university. I needed a healing day just thinking  and studying in a quiet space. I have been trying hard to manage all the things I want to do and still have time to control all the math that I we go through each day. 

That is why when I saw @littlestudyblrblog march challenge it felt very compelling since I really feel the need to think about what I do each day,to connect to myself and perhaps I could do this with my fellow followers as well!

The first question for the march challenge is : What do want to achieve this month?

This month Is going to be a very hectic one, I have a few tests and projects due and some other things as well. However that does not mean that do not have any other personal plans, rather I would say that they are never ending. this is why I have decided to divide my plans into to parts school and personal.

School: 

Since I have a few tests due my goal is to do well on these tests but also to do a few of the old tests at home. 

Another goal school wise is that I want to rewrite every single one of the notes that I have taken on my seminars since that will be a great way to memorize as well as getting all of them papers in one place.

Personal: 

I am currently working on my year plan/goal to learn another language however it is not going as well as planned since school is my top priority. Thus to continue staying active with learning I am going to be using an app called memrise It is available on the computer as well. However this is a good app to use on the go since my time to study other things are limited.

 Workout 5 days a week.

 Read 2 books.

This is loosely all that I want to achieve for this month. Perhaps this will change a bit through out the month we’ll just have to wait and see! 

P.S to be honest I have more things I want to do but one have to be able to set goals that are achievable instead of just hoping to do that you could do something. Take baby steps to where you want to go! D.S 

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On late nights I dream about my early mornings.

4.March.2017

Hi... It’s Kivi!

The second and third march challenge question that is hosted by @littlestudyblrblog I will post today and the #4 will come later today or tomorrow morning :D

#2

When is your favorite time to study?

- Right now anytime is my favorite study time. Since time is my most valuable asset. Often it is at the very end of the days since I find myself being very busy during the mid part of the day and mornings are not a possibility since I wake up at around 5.15 am to go to my university. On the days I am either on my train back home or running whatever errand or perhaps doing a workout. Later in the evening when the quiet begins that is when I begin my long study sessions. 

However it was not always this way, before the days when I had the opportunity to sleep in. I would wake up at 6 and study, especially on the weekends. When the birds would sing in the morning I would listen to their music and study. That is why silent mornings you would see me awake on my desk; studying. 

I still think about my morning sessions and perhaps a time will come in the future when these study session can be achieved.  However right now, I listen to leafs rustling by the wind instead.

If you want me to write a how to find your perfect time to study please like and reblog or message me to know and I will post it asp!

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Small update

7.March.2017

Hi… It’s Kivi! I probably will be going on and off on Tumblr till the 18th since that is when my first test in uni is and I really want to do well… However I will be doing my best in staying active and posting content as often as I can!! I will continue with #marchstudychallenge even if I have missed a few days already (oops😖) I guess that was all for my mini update! See you in my next post! <3

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4.March.2017

Hi... It is Kivi! 

I am doing a challenge hosted by the awesome studyblr @littlestudyblrblog. It is called #marchstudychallenge where I answer questions that you can see on her blog!

#3 

What is your favorite book or book series?

- I must say that I have read quite a lot of book during my 19 years but whenever someone would ask me this question a frown would mark my forehead since I did not know the answer. Or to be more precises MY answer to this question. This is not because I haven’t read a good book but how do you decide which book is the best? How could I put the experiences, the thoughts, ideas, dreams and words of different authors against each other? My younger and current self don’t have the heart to do such choices. I have books that affects me, I have better and worse reads however this all depends on timing. I book I found mind blowing 3 years ago would perhaps not have the same tinge to it now since I am human and humans change. However the memory of the reads at that time remains - The first impression.

At the top of my head the book series that I thought a lot about when I was younger was a fantasy series. I read a lot of dragon books before this and I don’t know but the well known and very loved series such as Harry Potter, The Lord of the Rings I was never drawn to. Whenever I tried to read them they did not stick and I could not finish them. It is not because they were bad NO, I just could not get immersed. The lord of the rings felt difficult and Harry potter felt to simple. However I have watched the movies and I must say I see the charms of these two series. The series that impacted my younger self is written by Cornelia Funk and is called the Inkheart triology. To this day this series have a special place in my heart. I fell for them: I could see the danger of a good book and the danger of a bad book. I think I grew a bit as a human since I learned a lot. I was engulfed the same way the main character Maggie was.

To pick a contemporary book is a bit more difficult. A book that I found to be disgusted by and simply wanted to throw away at the first read is a book written by Tayeb Salih - Season of migration to the north. I gave it another try and instead of looking at the story I read the meaning of the book; and a whole new world opened in front of me. I really loved reading all the love stories that the author Sarah Dessen has wrote. I remember being so affected by the movie The boy in striped pyjamas that I couldn’t even bring myself to read the book written by John Boyne. I have yet to read the book.

I have other books that I could write about my opinions these are just some at the top of my head. These are not my favorites since I don’t have that. I have many more series I enjoy and many other books that I love reading :D

What books have you enjoyed reading? Are your thoughts the same as me on the books and authors I have mentioned? I would love to know! 

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30 jan 2017 Some of my math notes from this past week! I think I am finally starting to get a hang of the way the days are organsed at my university and so far I am really enjoying my major 🙊