#icepath24

[zain-of-nobel]

"Sure, I'm looking forward to meeting Mr. Sullivan." Rae replied enthusiastically as she walked beside Zain, easily matching her pace with his. "I'm from Philip. Where are you from Mr. Zain?" She paused before adding, "If you don't mind me asking." As Rae turned to look at him, she couldn't help that despite his speed, he was still very much refined in the way he walked. With her eyes still on him, she made a mental note that if she got the job, he would be the one she'd strive to be like.

"I grew up in Nobel Michel," Zain answered simply as they continued their walk. "What made you want to be a librarian, Miss. Rae? It’s not the most luxurious of jobs." Zain was quite satisfied with what he was seeing. Not only was she quick, she was graceful as well. Her answers were polite and to the point.

As they turned into a busier hallway, Zain wondered how she would react. Would she attempt to force her way through?

[aqvarius]

icepath24 said: Hello hello, what’s wrong? (I don’t really know you, but I hope you don’t mind me asking :))

hiya, no it's alright haha. i just got my grades for a module i really liked last term and they're not bad by any stretch but they're not as good as i wanted them to be. i'm just irritating myself by setting unrealistic standards for myself because they don't seem unrealistic to me and i'm just now realising that i'm really not actually talented enough at anything which is frustrating. and the worst bit is that i know i'm not stupid by any means at all - most of my tutors like me (i think) because i know i come up with good points in seminars and i barely have trouble understanding readings and theoretical concepts. i'm just so terrible at getting an argument through by means of essay. i have absolutely no idea what makes a good essay at all - and even if i did, i'm sure i wouldn't be able to emulate it. the way i normally think makes my arguments abstract and somewhat convoluted but i don't feel like i want to waste words explaining a simple concept that i already understand, but it might my lack of explanation of things i find really obvious that gets me marked down?

and my brother who graduated with first class honours and got into cambridge for an MPhil at the age of 19 has the same sentiments (b/c we're very similar in terms of how we think and stuff) and yet he writes incredible essays and i have no idea how he even does it. he checked this essay through and and edited it and said i have good points so i think i was expecting this to have a really good result (esp since my first assesssment on this module did really well) but alas.

oh, and being the youngest in my family and the only girl, i keep  feeling like i have to prove myself which is kind of stupid but i just want academic acknowledgement just to show that i can be as good as the rest of my family.

but like the reason why i'm extra frustrated/annoyed is because i know this is all just stuff i'm telling myself. i know i don't need a first and i know i don't need to stand out, and i've got the rest of my life to find what i'm good at (assuming that i am actually good enough at something to work at it and go towards that career path) but it's just all this personal insecurity and internalised pressure. 

haha wow this turned into a full on rant (see, this is how convoluted and confusing my essays can be) i'm so sorry

[zain-of-nobel]

Hi Mun, hope you're doing well and are not too stressed. Hope the rest of your week will go well! That is all I wanted to say :)

"My Mistress sends her greetings and thanks you for your concern. Unfortunately she could not respond herself as she is in the midst of her final exams. She also apologize for keeping me to herself. Her words, not mine. I will return to responding soon, Miss. Rae."

[zain-of-nobel]

(Thank you so much!) Ah yes, sorry, I tend to, um, forget things when I'm nervous. I am in fact applying to take care of the library and the archives section here. Will the interview be starting soon? Rae inwardly scolds herself for letting her nerves get the best of her and hopes she hasn't already made a bad impression on her would-be employer.

"I was not expecting you yet, Miss. Rae. You are quite timely." Zain smiled gently. "Let us conduct your interview in the library then, shall we? It will give you an opportunity to look at what your working environment will be. Perhaps you can meet Mr. Sullivan, the retiring librarian," Zain explained. He began walking in a brisk pace, a pace he expects of his staff members, and carefully watched Miss. Rae from the corner of his eye. "Forgive me," he continued, "I’ve been through so many resumes recently that I’ve forgotten. Where are you from Miss. Rae?" He listened for her response, gaging how composed she could be in a fast working environment. In this case, quite literally.

[caithesblossom-blog]

11 Questions (tagged by icepath24)

RULE 1: ALWAYS POST THE RULES.

RULE 2: ANSWER THE QUESTIONS OF THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU AND WRITE 11 NEW ONES.

RULE 3: TAG ELEVEN PEOPLE AND LINK THEM.

RULE 4: LET THEM KNOW ONCE YOU’VE TAGGED THEM

QUESTIONS:

1. Favourite book (can be a series or just a one-off novel)

The Mortal Instruments series

2. Favourite fruit

Mango/watermelon aS IF I COULD CHOOSE BW THEM

3. Favourite colour

Teal

4. What’s your music taste?

Mostly alt. rock, I guess

5. Favourite type of cuisine

Hurm… Idk, Italian prob

6. How many languages do you know?

English, semi-fluent in Spanish, learning Japanese :D

7. Dogs or cats?

I like both, I can’t choose ;A;

8. If you could act in one movie and play the character of your choice, which movie and character would you choose to portray?

Well I def wouldn’t be in Hunger Games  I’d love to be Violet in The Incredibles I’m so her uwu

9. If you had a superpower, what would it be?

Forcefields

10. Favourite Disney movie

The Pirates of the Caribbean series

11. If you could go anywhere in the world right now, where would you go and why?

As long as it’s not here, I’d be fine anywhere tbh

Thanks for tagging me, and I’m sorry it took so long! ^.^/

[zain-of-nobel]

Will do. Oh yes, I forgot to tell you my name. I'm Rae. (Sorry to bother you but this is my first time rp-ing so could you help me with a prompt? Thanks!)

(Of course, Miss. Rae.)

"Nice to meet you, Miss. Rae. Are you perhaps here to interview for a staff position? I’ve already seen plenty and ladies and gentleman applying for the job but I didn’t think my next scheduled appointment was for another half hour." Zain looked down as his wrist watch, concerned that he had kept Miss. Rae, if she indeed was applying for a position, waiting.

[zain-of-nobel]

Oh hello! I wasn't expecting any welcome at all. I'm new here so I'm hoping I don't mess up. Thank you very much! *bows with a smile* [Hi Mun, I hope you're well :)]

"If you ever need anything or have a question, please don’t hesitate to ask. My Mistress sends her greetings as well."

[zain-of-nobel]

"Welcome, Miss. Shall I show you to your room?"