FIGHTING the FEAR ⚔️🛡 // A Very VULNERABLE Post \\ Moms last night in town we wanted to get together for dinner with Some family. ALL DAY LONG, as it poured Rain, the Wind BLEW Sideways and the Sky was a Stormy Gray, I CONTEMPLATED My Going Out in Public for the first time since Dec. 20th. (other than to Doctor appts). HOW Was THIS going to pan out? HOW was I going to Get through the FEAR, INSECURITY of Stares, Silent Whispers, etc.? We’re Going to dinner, but I Don’t want to eat.. For FEAR of the RUDE Comments or Looks.. I KNOW I have a MEDICAL issue that has Brought my Appearance to THIS Point, but THEY Don’t... and Quite Frankly, in TODAYS SOCIETY, they Wouldn’t Care, I Would Still Be JUDGED by my OUTER APPEARANCE regardless of Reason. I canNOT Shut Myself Away! I canNOT Worry about Others! I Am STRONGER than My FEAR, My INSECURITIES! I was Doing So GOOD with @cataclysm_fitness and the #iCOMMITfam All last year! I made GREAT Progress. Most IMPORTANTLY, in my MINDSET. I Felt INCREDIBLE!! My Energy Level was Better Than Ever and My OUTLOOK was So POSITIVE. So WHY is it I’m here Today, ALLOWING this GARBAGE Of What OTHERS Think, affect ME?!? The ENEMY!!! STRAIGHT UP... He will Try and Do ANYTHING his Weasley peon slithering self can do to Rob, Steal & Destroy our Joy! So IM STANDING UP TALL, THROWING On My Combat Boots and I’m FIGHTING this FEAR! It’s WAR TIME!!! ⚔️🖤🔥🛡 #Hillsong #Channel #Worship #church #represent #faith #love #focus #peace #joy #GodIsGood #mindset #onHim #shine #light #beKind #health #autoimmunedisease #lupus #steroids #fullmoonface #fibromyalgia #lung #problems #sneddonssyndrome #live #beStrong #Strength #smilebitch https://www.instagram.com/p/BtaJ5VAlAC7/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=e5hcmppx679c