The work began in the early morning hours.
I did a ritual cleansing of the area with sage as well as prepared for ritual with a bath anointed with goats milk, lavender and lemon balm. The milk I see as a nurturing aesthetic, as as this is a reconnection with Iddyl I want not only to nurture the connection but also encourage a nurturing relationship between her and I. Lavender flowers and oil helps to calm and open myself to psychic awareness and communication with the entity I am working with. Lemon balm because it has a "fresh" scent and also a calming quality. It seems suited to her personality.
After the cleansing I entered ritual space and performed the lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram. I then opened a traditional circle by calling quarters and powers in the order of east, south, west and ending in north. I drew down above and connected the strand with the spiraling below utilizing a chakra alignment visualization technique.
I then lit three candles, appealing to Iddyl's triple goddess qualities, One of purple, one of green and the center candle being a white pillar. The colored ones were scented with light floral scents, I felt this more appropriate to this working than incense. Purple symbolizes her mysteries, green symbolizes her joys, white symbolizes her purity.
I sat before the altar and placed Iddyl's sigil behind the candles. I stared through the light and meditated on her sign.
This is the original Iddyl sigil I had divined during a 2011 working with Frater Boz: he who helped to awake the goddess so that she might tell him her name.
I called the goddess to commune with me by chanting her name and meditating on her sigil. I started to feel after a while that I was in the woods alone with her although there was no vision of a forest in my eyes, it was imprinted instead on my consciousness.
Prior to the working I had discussed with my partner Frater Boz different methods for divining communication with Iddyl. I had decided upon asking for images or sigils to explore for further meaning by way of automatic drawing.
When I put pencil to paper I maintained visual mediation on Iddyl's sigil for a bit at first, I realized that I had been vaguely drawing the sigil itself and realized that instead of being "given signs" Iddyl instead wanted me to draw her sign. The image that came to me was of of her sigil floating above a pond or lake in the moonlight. I drew this in pencil, it took about 40 minutes. While drawing I really enjoyed the task and it seemed almost "fun" I did in fact catch myself smiling. As I was working on the image I shifted my consciousness to Iddyl completely who delivered a simple phrase.
"Less idolatry, more connection."
She showed me the gentle waves of the pond and the sway of the grass on the bank. The kiss of moonlight and how it painted the night. The lazy churning of the fish below the surface of the water, even in this seeming silence of night there is life, activity, connection, movement. With myself, with others, with my community, with my planet and nature. With the very fabric of existence and magic. The supreme subtle connection, fleeting like a voice carried away on the wind.
She showed me in the constant quest for naming and understanding facets and tools of reality that I limit what I am connected to. Not that it is a bad thing. Iddyl smiles and approves of curiosity. She warns however of the perils of isolated truths and disconnect with the world in which we exist to experience in the waking now.
She is a keeper of old magic, before degrees and practice and theory. Before temples and adepts and magicians.
This is the old magic of human and spirit and heaven and earth.
Here is the completed sketch.
