May 12, 2019
not trying to say growing up w my parents being that weird mix of ignoring me or being angry at me and giving me no emotional support or anything was Traumatic but it sure was Something and it affected me wholly and ill never get over it
#i feel like there ought to be a word for this thats like#one up from Dysfunction but one down from Traumatic bc its not like they were horrific or demonic and they dont know how fucked up i got#hell i didnt know how fucked up it left me until i was a grown up but like. i am so deeply affected but they didnt ever really Do anything#from the outside they were normal good parents but just so much tiny day to day stuff happened that grated away at me for like 20 years ykno#idk...weird#in other news im going stupid and crazy being in this house w them! the perils of having decent parents who dont kick u out or charge rent!