You know what, that is it. Im completely done.
Im letting go, and knowing my mom will probably look at this just makes it all the more fun
YOU HAVE TAKEN EVERYTHING AWAY FROM ME. My hopes, dreams, aspirations. Security, safety, self-respect. My confidence, happiness, and trust.
How can I survive when I have you for a mother. A depressed, hopeless women that has no hope for anything everyday. You complain constantly, never accepting and being happy with what is in front of you. I never had a active father, and you make it feel like I never had a mother too. You focus on work, and money. You dont and never have been an active part of my life. You have do your best to destroy every part of happiness in my life. I have no security in my home, constantly coming home to unhappiness, arguing, disappointing and fighting.
You dont believe I have a future in front of me. You constantly put me down, telling me how i will have to stay home after highschool. Telling me to stay for you. Telling me im not good enough to get a scholarship or any future ahead of me.
I have no confidence or self-respect due to your constant years of abuse, verbally, physically, and emotionally. I never feel good enough, cause you often tell me how im not. You have thrown me against walls, thrown cat shit at me, and have slapped or shoved me multiple times. I am done.
You are a hopeless, sad women and im tired of feeling sorry for your diseases. You have never been an active part of my life, unless you are punishing me for my own choices. Im growing up, and thats hard for you to accept. And I will be leaving this hell soon. Since first grade i have been getting myself up, eating, and taking care of myself all day every day. you give me nothing but food and shelter. I refuse to wait around for you to catch up on lost years you spent behind a desk. I wont.
