#idontknowsomethingderpy

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I'm having an episode

@idontknowsomethingderpy

Hi baby. I miss you alot. I'm having one of my episodes where I just feel kinda down. It's not a really bad one it's just one where I feel like doing nothing and I just frown. I am having a hard time finding a reason to smile. I know I will get through it but I think it's just overstress. I.... just.... Idk...

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I miss you...

@idontknowsomethingderpy

I miss you so much baby. I don't want to be here at home. I feel miserable here, I am so stressed out and depressed and all I get is either yelled at or pity tripped or bored because there is nothing to do. I wish I could hold you and be with you. I want to tickle you and watch tv and movies with you and play games. I want to have conversations with you and talk about everything with you. I just want you. I miss you.

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Dear love

@idontknowsomethingderpy

Hi baby. How are you? What did you do today? I love and miss you. I'm just hanging out with Matt right now. We have been watching southpark. I love and miss you so much. I miss your kisses.

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I miss you...

@idontknowsomethingderpy

Good morning baby. I miss you alot. I hope you had a good thanksgiving. I wish I could've spent it with you.

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We need to talk...

@idontknowsomethingderpy @uffod1996

So apparently it is me who is the one that NEEDS to talk to you? Like you aren't having a hard time not talking to me? If that's the case then let me tell you, I have been understanding. I have tried. All I have ever done is let you focus and all I have asked is that you talk to me on here. Directly. It's not like you are on all the time and I never "message" you on here. It's all posts. It's in my head that I need to talk to you. I'm the one who needs this because apparently you are fine. It feels like you are drifting away farther and farther and if you want to drift then that's fine, I can't stop you. Now you don't even want to talk to me directly and the way you talk to my mom is that I am the one who needs this or i think I do. Like I am the one wanting to be with you so badly. Here's the thing, I don't need it. I don't need to talk to you I want to because I want to stay with you, because if we don't talk at all then we have no relationship at all, because if I don't hear from you then I am miserable and I worry and my heart breaks. I don't want to be that way. I want to smile when I see you talk to me because it shows you think of me. But I don't NEED you to talk to me if you don't want to. You were the one who started talking to me on here and now you are taking it away. So why bother? If this is what YOU want then do it. I want to wait for you but I don't know if I can handle being so miserable without hearing from you for so long. But it's ME who supposedly needs this not YOU.... honestly that's fine. I can't fight it anyways because I will be the reason you go into the hospital supposedly due to the stress I cause you. So I won't. If you want to talk to me then it would make me so happy but ultimately it's your decision...

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Dear love

@idontknowsomethingderpy

How did everything go babe? How is your wrist? I miss you like crazy. I hope you enjoy your week off you lucky duck. I miss your cute widdle face. I am counting down the days until the dance on new years.

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Dear love

@idontknowsomethingderpy

Good morning my love. I hope everything is ok. I miss you and I love you. I hope you have a good day and whatever you do today you have fun. I will be making cranberry sauce and homemade rolls and other things for thanksgiving today.