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Hiya everyone! A life update i guess

Woah it is strange to be back on this site after so long, but after going through old (like a year plus) emails i saw i still get so many messages asking where i am. Y'all if i could tell you about the entire almost two years of my life since i last posted i would, because it has been crazy. But i guess I'll just skim to important details.

For one I'm now 21, that just happened February 1st and it's been kinda intense. Shortly after i last posted i began binge drinking to help deal with things. Dating people who brought me around even worse things, and there for a while was just in a bad place. I've wrecked (and totaled) two cars including my dream car (a 2012 mustang). I was arrested for some dumbshit i did. Oh and i started working at Hooters March of last year which honestly settled me down a lot. 

As of right now though I'm doing way better, legal issues have been sorted and removed from my record, i don't drinking every day or even a few times a week like i was. And the guy I'm now dating makes me beyond happy. Overall i can say i am a totally different person than i was when i last posted. I guess i just had to figure out more of who i was, like i said, it just took a little longer than expected  

With all of this being said if y'all are still out there and still wanting stories i would be very happy to try and post more now that i can get back on this account. Just let me know! And Ps thank you for all the messages, well wishes, and compliments. I missed y'all!

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I'm afraid the mastermind didn't work, if you can't get it to work don't worry about it!

Okay I think I’ve found the solution for you! If you’re just wanting to read Mesmerized By You you can either go to Part 12 and scroll down to my tags, the last tag will be ‘mesmerizedbyouiguessilljustpretend’ (just one y) and it will pull up all the parts for you. Or if you can click the tag in this ask and it should take you as well! Side note: I just realized I have two part 5′s, so idk how that happened or if I meant to but lol.

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For all my people in love with 80s Rockers

Do you ever realize that you're in love with a version of someone that no longer exists? Like I fell in love with Axl based off photos and videos of him from the 80s and 90s completely unaware. I love him now don't get my wrong but I think in my head it's like there's two Axl's. And most of my heart and love is with a person who no longer exists. That trips me the fuck out, am I alone in this????

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Tag!

I was tagged by the sweet @whole-lotta-axl, thank you so much love ❤️ 1. What is the real reason you are confused right now? If 1 am is too late for chocolate cake. 2. What were you doing at 11PM last 
night? Probably watching family guy lol. 3. How do you feel about 3AM? That's my normal bed time sadly. 4. I bet you kissed someone last night, right? Tru. Tru. 5. You can drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life? Well. Seeing as I do that now I choose Dr. Pepper. 6. Do you like hickeys?
well. Being older now I do not but that's cause my lovely bf gave me 6 one time and I got my ass tore up. 7. Is there someone who continuously lets you down? Not anymore. Gotta cut people like dat out👋🏼 8. Do you always answer your texts? I either respond in 3 seconds or 3 months. 9. Last time you talked to one of your best friends? Well one of my best friends and I, I believe have had a friend break up. My other best friend I just talked to like 3 days ago. 10. Are you a silent or talkative person? Depends with who. 11. Is anyone else in the room with you? Nooo. 12. Do you cry easily? It depends on the day tbh. 13. What is your family like? Well. I don't talk to my dad or his family. But the rest are okay. I'm very distant from my family because of my dad. 14. What was your last text message? "Oh :( " when my bf said he'd be off at like 2. 15. Most embarrassing moment? My hair at 13. *cringes violently* 16. If you had to get a piercing (not ears)? I'm hoping to get my septum done soon so that. 17. Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? Do I need cake. 18. Where are you going on your next vacation? No where because broke. 19. Where have you lived most of your life? South Carolina. That's it 😂 20. Do you curse around your parents? Yes 21. Are you happy with where you live? I wish it was a bit bigger with more storage. But other than that sure. 22. Words you can’t spell half the time? Challenge for some reasons fucks me up. I can't think of any more right now. 23. What were you doing last night at 12 AM? I was getting drunk, watching family guy, playing with play dough. Sad life. 24. Do you cook? I can make a bomb omelet and cakes from the box. So that's a no lol. 25. Name four things that you wish you had! A MacBook, college text books, a closet full of jeans, and my car to be paid off. Sigh. 26. Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? No I haven't. At least that I know of. 27. How is your hair? A very faded purple with like 2 inches of dark af regrowth, that's about three inches past my collar bone. And it's straight because my hair is fried so natural isn't an option. 28. Think back to January 2007; were you single? Absolutely lol. 29. Are you nice to everyone? I'm friendly lol. 30. How do you feel about sea aquariums? I have a very strong option about aquariums/zoos/circuses. Seaworld is the devil and always will be. I think most zoos should be closed because the animals should get to enjoy a life with out being constantly looked at. And circuses are literally the worse things in the world and should be banned tbh. I had a lot of fun answering these! As far as tags go I hate to bother people so if you'd like to do it just tag me! I'd love to learn more about all of you ☺️❤️

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Whenever "My Heart Will Go On" plays on Pandora I must turn into the most dramatic performer ever. Have to. Not optional.

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Life lesson #100 It's tiring when other people have children

Me texting my bestfriend (who just had a baby): I am literally so tired. Waiting at the hospital all day wore me out.

My bestfriend: *this bitch* I just had a child.

Me: I'm sensing some attitude here. Think we both need a nap.

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Update lovelies!

I am editing/revising Part 8 of MbY now! So you guys should see it tomorrow, either in the morning or evening depending on if I'm able to get it done completely and arrange auto post for first thing in the morning! Side note: I had an anon ask me if I had Instagram/snapchat but it some how disappeared (is that happening to anyone else, I've noticed a few questions go MIA). I do have both and if anyone would like to follow me or add me please just message me off anon! Both are kinda personal (obvs) so I'd like to know before hand ☺️

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I would like to have a moment of silence for the fact that my boyfriend is cutting all his hair off today *moment of silence*. After a fucking year of growing it out and it almost being as long as Axl's, he's just throwing in the towel. I will never get to have my own Axl and I'm clearly more upset about this then I should be.