#ihavetoleave

[rudimentary-lathe]

I forget who I am around you

I second guess virtually everything I do

I want to be kind, but growing up competitive, I have to fight the urge to be quick and spiteful.

I rationalize the good in others when they’ve hurt me, and I rationalize the good in myself when I’ve hurt others.

sometimes I disgust myself.

Hypocrisy, our greatest religion.

I am too comfortable with talking about virtually anything, and I assume I’m closer to others than I really am, and I assume too much. I get too attached.

It’s a difficult lesson to learn, just because you share your heart with someone doesn’t mean they have to take it.

I’ve left my heart behind in too many places... It’s growing cold

it is unfair to hold it against others when you’ve given them a glimpse of who you are and they are deterred, they just don’t fit your puzzle.

I hold no angst, regret, nor ill will towards you.

I would love to be there when you succeed, but it will have to be from the sidelines.

it’s easy to brood and wallow in the state that I’m in

it’s necessary and I will be a better person

you can label me and avoid me now that I’ve wronged you, there’s no excuse for what I’ve done.

I’m trying to be sincere here...

I probably don’t deserve forgiveness or sympathy

I may not always go about it the right way but the truth is

I second guess virtually everything I do

[allthingsmustgeorge]

thanks for tagging me im-only-sweeping!

What was your… 1. Last drink: coffee


 2. Last phone call: my grandma


 3. Last text message: my best friend


 4. Last song you listened to: after hours - the velvet underground

5. Last time you cried: couple weeks ago

Have you ever… 1. Dated someone twice: nah. or ya?(like being in a relationship or going out??)

2. Been cheated on: nah


 3. Kissed someone and regretted it: ya


 4. Lost someone special: nah


5. Been depressed: ya


6. Been drunk and threw up: ya it was super embarrassing

In the past year have you… 1. Made a new friend: ya


2. Fallen out of love: nah

3. Laughed until you cried: ya


4. Met someone who changed you: definitely!


5. Found out who your true friends are: i guess?


 6. Found out someone was talking about you: ya


 7. Kissed someone on your fb list: ya

General…

1. How many people on your fb list do you know: know well? like a hundred


 2. Do you have any pets: three cats and a parakeet


3. Do you want to change your name: nah

4. What did you do for your last birthday party: just dinner


5. What time did you wake up today: 8 o

6. What were you doing at midnight last night: writing a letter


7. Name something you can’t wait for: graduating high school!!!


8. Last time you saw your mother: couple hours ago

9. What’s one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I wouldn’t care about peoples opinion so much (imonlysweeping already said this but basically)

10. What are you listening to rn: let love rule - lenny kravitz

11. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: ya i guess some uncle or smth


12. Blood type: idk 


13. Nickname(s): none :(

14. Relationship status: single

15. Zodiac sign: capricorn


16. Pronouns: she


17. Favorite tv show: idk i don’t watch much tv

18. College: no high school

19. Hair color: blond

20. Long or short: shortish


21. Height: 1,65


22. Do you have a crush on someone: nah

23. What do you like about yourself: i try


24. Tattoos: a small flying... cone?

25. Righty or lefty: lefty


26. First surgery: they pushed my wrist bones back it was hardcore

27. First piercing: nose


28. First best friend: Olympia she was such a weird girl ah memories


29. First sport you joined: swimming


30. First vacation: i think malta or portugal or sicily.


31. First pair of sneakers: i guess all stars my dad rlly likes them.

Rn… 1. Eating: nothing


2. Drinking: tea


3. I’m about to: start studying for german.


4. Waiting for: myself to not be such a lazy skank

5. Want kids: don’t think so


6. Get married: Idk im 18


7. Career: babysitting + the government pays me for going to school B)

What’s better… 1. Lips or eyes: lips


2. Hugs or kisses: hugs


3. Shorter or taller: taller


4. Older or younger: older


5. Romantics or spontaneous: ?? aren’t romantics spontaneous, like looking for adventure and freedom from the norms and stuff

6. Nose, stomach or nice arms: (flat) stomach


7. Sensitive or loud: sensitive


8. Hook up or relationship: idk tbh


9. Trouble maker or hesitant: depends, is it just an annoying person or someone who stands up for something?

Have you ever… 1. Kissed a stranger: ya


2. Drank hard liquor: ya


3. Lost glasses/contacts: aLL the time jfc


4. Sex on first date: nah


5. Broke someone’s heart: nah


6. Been arrested: nah


7. Turned someone down: ya


8. Fallen for a friend: ya

Do you believe in… 1. Yourself: nah


2. Miracles : nah


3. Love at first sight: ya


4. Heaven: nah


5. Santa Claus: nah in my country they don’t rlly do santa


6. Kiss at first date: is that something to believe in??

7. Angels: nah

i tag ihavetoleave if she wants and anyone else who’s also putting off their homework or whoever wants to do this.

[jackie-wants-to-be-a-rocker]

I was tagged by binyilsahini, thank you c:

Rules:

1. Always post the rules

2. Answer the questions of the person who tagged you and write 11 new ones

3. Tag eleven people and link them

4. Let them know you’ve tagged them

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1. When did you start to listen to your favorite band?

which one? 

2. Is there a band that you love now, but hated in the past?

nope

3.  Have you ever met a famous person? 

nope

4. How many languages can you talk? 

polish, english, a bit french and im gonna learn spanish this year so 2,5 :d

5. Do you prefer hot weather or cold weather? 

hot 

6. What is your dream job? 

maybe florist or stewardess

7. Do you play any instruments? 

yea, fab flute and im trying to play guitar

8. Which tv series is your favorite? 

supernatural

9. What does your url mean? 

nothing. it just hit me once so idk

10. When did you join Tumblr, and why? 

this year, 1st jan. i was just bored and curious where all those cool pics come from :D

11. Do you believe in love?

i do

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my questions:

1.What are your favourite books?

2.Are you an artist/writer?

3.Do you smoke?

4.Describe your crush

5.Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

6.What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

7.Turns on

8.Turns off

9.Are you a dreamer?

10.Who is your favourite fictional character?

11.What is your favourite video game?

I tag: 

the-80s-do-it-better , lovememrmojo , ihavetoleave , headbanger97 , bloodyhalo , im-the-girl-in-the-box , bastardofreality , nyan-jimmy , pizza-is-my-business , hot-for-eddies-fingers , thelightoftheblind