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[giizmobeats]

You're all my thoughts I fought the cause to call this holiday Barring all I won't cave And kept my cryptic posts from giving anything away But not a day went by Spent every way trying and I'll submit that I've quit for a bit to keep these wandering eyes from prying Lying to myself denying how I felt Confined and tied to every line for my notes to tell In my phone they'll dwell Corralled to decompose And with no rationale I'll continue to over load They'll continue to grow Every syllable with devote A constant scuffle to muffle my troubles all the while the vile stench of hope Stay reposed or poke a little at fate In the end I gave in and again I'm probably too late. No matter what has happened, threw it all, I haven't given up on myself and the progress I have made. I still try on a daily basis to continue to better myself and the flaws I believe I have. I hope you're doing well and can say the same. Happy new year @mawiekatherine

[anomaliesarewe]

Sunday, August 21st

It's been a while now, feels like ages. I hope you're doing well. Not a day goes by you're not on my mind. It may sound odd but, that connection is as real as oxygen and, I hope you're not.. Yeah. Although, track record in mind, I can't help but feel I'm still on your gray matter somewhere. I just hope you're able to set those things aside and keep pushing forward. You're so close to fully taking this world in your grasp and making moves for the future, as determined, organized and intelligent as you are, there's no doubt in my mind you're on to big things. Just wish I could be there to motivate and congratulate you on your way up but I'm here, celebrating and cheering in silence. As for this "update", it's been a while, motivated by the signs you can say. You seem to be popping up a little more in my face than usual. I think it all started around when Facebook decided to remind me of us changing our relationship status. 😖😂😶 Ever since around that time, you're around every turn, and when the universe figures out I'm ignoring it, that's when it's in my face status. Shiit, out of nowhere you pop up in my sc. I thought you block me or some shiit back when I saw our thread on there turn gray. Than I accidentally didn't swipe it off on a story above yours. OMG! My heart dropped, I swiped it off so quick. 😂😝 I trolled a little on your tumblr last night too. 😶 I don't know what's going on in your life but I know you have an amazing head on your shoulders and even though I don't know, I know you're doing great. On a little side note, I didn't know when I started this "unsent text" it would be so cathartic. I feel better thinking of you doing well instead of just thinking about the fact I don't really know how you're doing.