yesterday one of my friends said that they hated you. and hating you is an emotion that has been so common for me for so long, but i have never heard it voiced by one of my friends before. i asked her why and she said “because of how he treats you,” and in the moment it made me sad because the way i’ve let you treat me for five years is worthy of a bystander’s hatred. but it also made me happy because no one has ever hated anyone for me before. the pattern has seemed to be that those who have hurt me have been befriended by others close to me.
i think that hating someone simply because they have hurt your friend is the highest sign of loyalty. so perhaps it’s sad that you have hurt me enough to be worthy of hate, but it means so much more that i have anyone who cares about me enough to waste negative energy on you.
