how do you feel sympathy for anything that isnt an animal, i mean sure humans struggle but it happens for a reason, but i am talking about people close to me, there is always some kind of hatred in my heart when it comes to the people close to me getting hurt or angry or upset in anyway because of something. i mean it could not be their fault but i still feel the need to think about how that person may have done something wrong themself, or if they've wronged me once i wont have an ounce of sympathy. maybe if we grow close again i will feel a speck of it, but thats really the extent here.. i feel like this fact about me makes me evil because i just cant seem to get my feeling bad for someone button to work here. this goes for people i loosely consider friends to, i might hate you right now actually, because you might've done something that my brain made out to be as a threat to my judgement or something.. but i will eventually forgive you without noticing and continue to be friendly because it is in my nature of course, but i will always have a neverending hatred for certain people, unfortunately
