#im definitely overthinking

[bobtheguy122]

I was talking to my coworker(who is a casual watcher) about episode 7 of TADC and I had explained to them the theory about how all the circus members are digital copies of their human selves and how its a conflicting topic for me.

Because if that's true, good, the there's no actual humans trapped in this digital world and I'm glad they aren't actually suffering. But on the other hand all the relationships they've had with each other within the digital circus are not real and the human versions of zooble and gangle will never meet each other in the real world. Whether or not you guys see it as platonic or romantic, that fact absolutely destroys me because I believe that they are meant to be in each other's lives!

I also said that if they are truly digital copies of their human selves then in a way everything that zooble said to gangle is true!

Everything THEY felt, (the digital copies)

Everything THEY'VE done, (them as digital copies)

Will never LEAVE them. (they are digital copies with no human bodies and can't leave)

My coworker had to take a step back when I dumped all that onto them.

[squeeze-lemons-in-my-eyes]

The anxious-avoidant attachment style is the worst.

Text me, give me attention, offer your commitment? I'm probably gunna be too overwhelmed by it, immediately abort mission and run for the fucking hills.

Don't text me, vibes ever so slightly off? Are you okay? Are you alive?? Has something happened? Oh my god, I have done something wrong. I'm annoying. I need validation.

[iyaaiye]

i’m talking to this boy and he seems so good for me but almost too good for me? like.... he’s incredibly spiritually and intellectually driven and that is very sexy but i feel like i’m falling behind. and i feel like he has so much to offer (in terms of advice and being someone that could potentially help me heal) but i don’t want it? i don’t want him to heal me?? idk it feels so one sided and i don’t wanna become a fucking project and he doesn’t make me feel like i am but my brain literally can not take the idea of not being able to offer anything. like i offer support but that’s about it lol. and you can find that with a lot of people. and i want him to! idk i can’t tell if this is just a dub or if i’m overthinking and i should just try and let him help

[sketchdeath]

“am i self-aware?” is like, the worst question to be existential about bc is questioning it proving the answer wrong? or is saying yes, i am pretty self-aware of most things i do and say and how people are affected by it an overly conceited statement?