Ok one more I think being the piece of shit junkie asshole friend who still holds it together is my right. Its my penance for still being alive and everyone has to deal w it idc
#i ALWAYS have had to be the guy whos had it together#the mask started to slip maybe 2-3 yrs ago do ig even when i was soft launching going crazy i still had to be the one to make plans and make#decision and be the one who started necessary conversations#im like...done lol#whenever i stopped being the guy who has it all together i lost my best friend so like maybe they never liked me i think they just liked the#guy who had it all together despite everything#im done im messy im fuck you fuck da world i do what i want bc my entire life if i ever did what i wanted#and if i ever expressed myself i would get abused so um#LOL idc deal with me! or leave!#i paid my dues!!!!!