#im marking it

[4-leafed]

more mark grayson fics NOWWW that teaser has me lusting

[bellibum]

very few people know how important this fuck ass character is to me

[ianthe]

today is the first day of the rest of my life

i just got into a discussion with my dad that ended with us both crying so thst got really serious really fast

that startd off talking about my identity crisis and talking about whiteness and privilege adn the n word and intent and harm and language and wow

and im going wiht my mom to my grandpas later to ask him to tell me stories about belize

today is fucking real as fuck

like im real awkwardw ith my grandpa i like never wanna talk to him or like hug him or anything cuz i feel likei dont know him well enough

so im just gonna

ask him some stories plus he got mad at me the one time my mom told him i never call her and he said that was no way for a daughter to treat her mother and thats when i relized damn i am a bad belizean so ij m determined to make this right also i hate white pe ople so theres that

and i need to start introducing myself with all three syllables of my damn name that my mama calls me like i can't get lazy cuz then the white man will get lazy

im looking right now how i can spend a good chunk of time in belize somehow somewhere i just wanna like

i was thinking this morning about howi wanna like raise my kids there first have em learn kriol and have lil accents and learn about belize history and like go to america later

idk man ive been having a lot of thoughts in life

like maybe after this masters degree i wont go for my phd immediately ill just go like be a belizean and like start a theatre company or some bullshit who knwos