#im v emo

[pissboycharles]

lucas bowing down to his car and giving it some affectionate pats before the lace race of the season (not only that but: his 100th, his last with rokit, and last in gen2 cars), is very special to me

[zoroshonkingbazonkadonkas]

he likes her he knows she likes someone else but that doesnt stop him from still helping her be whoever she needs to be

[deadgcrl]

                 ☽                  she’s  still  trying  to  process  everything  that  just  happened,  and  she  hasn’t  yet  registered  his  question.  she  disentangles  herself  from  him,  looking  back  over  her  shoulder  at  what  should  have  been  a  disaster  for  her,  a  hand  lifting  to  pull  her  hair  out  of  her  face  before  turning  back  to  look  at  peter.   ❛   you. . .   ❜  her  heart  is  still  racing,  hands  shaking  as  she  shoves  them  into  the  pockets  of  her  jacket.  she  clears  her  throat,  tongue  snaking  out  to  wet  dry  lips.   ❛   are  you  okay?   ❜  is  she  okay?  a  heavy  exhale,  thoughts  running  a  mile  a  minute.  finally,  she  decides  she  needs  to  sit  down,  a  few  steps  to  the  nearest  wall  and  she’s  sliding  down,  legs  pulled  to  her  chest  and  face  pressed  into  her  knees.

@doubleliives​ sent:  “ why wouldn’t i save you? ” // peter viiiibes

[saslovebot]

the fact itachi was so selfless he forced himself to be controlled, calculated and cold his entire life, yet allowed himself one small selfish moment before dying, in front of sasuke - his kryptonite - by touching his forehead and apologizing for leaving one last time. but despite the selfishness, even in death he had enough restraint to keep sasuke at arms length, in order to save his baby brother from the pain of losing him and everything that came along with it.

[jupiterdrcps]

kiran wakes up in the middle of the night and realizes that it’s late and he’s got too much on his mind and an enormous amount of guilt weighing on his chest that he doesn’t know what to do with. when he finishes the letter, he reads it over the next morning putting his sisters address stamping it with a cow stamp because he thinks that it would make her laugh, and sends it. 

Dear Amee, 

Sometimes I feel like you were meant to be born first. What I mean by this is, you’re a far more better person than I am, you have your life together much more than I do. I think I was a bad older brother. I know I was a bad older brother, actually. I guess it’s the one thing me and our parents relate to, we both didn’t know what we were doing when we were placed with these roles. (Them being our parents, me being your brother). I suppose I am grateful that I was the first born child, they didn’t know what they were doing with me, I suppose that’s how it is with first borns, yeah? Our parents were young and weren’t in love yet, I’m pretty sure dad told me that his parents were this close to disowning him because they got pregnant. It is what it is, I’m glad that our grandparents love us even if they don’t know how to show us. Maybe it’s just a generational thing. I think about that a lot. Which is like strange because I try very hard to not think about anything! 

I know when I left the first time to go to college you were sad because I would be so far away, it was the first time that we would ever be separated from each other, but I think we needed it at the time, and still sort of do.  I don’t know if I’m someone that’s meant to have healthy relationships simply because if someone sticks around me for too long they get damaged.We both have such strong personalities and clash heads a lot but I know that you would do anything for me like I would do anything for you. 

I don’t really know why I’m writing you this letter, I just couldn’t sleep tonight and had too much on my mind and didn’t really feel like drinking or getting high (surprise) and didn’t know where to put all this extra energy so I guess I decided that maybe this was the next best thing. I’m thinking about how I left the first time, like I said earlier, and how proud mom and dad were of me when I decided to give law school a try. I remember how dad smiled at me like I had finally done something that was worth something and mom gave me a hug and told me that “See you can do anything you put your mind to, Kiran.” 

I never told you this, but I spent that entire year fucking around. Sleeping with the wrong people, going to the wrong parties, and was just generally very depressed in my dorm room missing the valley, missing you, and feeling like this isn’t who I was supposed to be. But then I thought, if this isn’t who I’m supposed to be, then who am I? After that first year I had packed everything up and drove myself back home and I remember mom making my favorite meal and finding it hard to tell them that I wasn’t going back to school.

It wasn’t an easy decision to come by either. I didn’t want mom and dad to be disappointed in me, but mainly… I didn’t want you to be disappointed in me. I know that I should care more of what mom and dad thought of me but I don’t. I guess I came to that conclusion over time of realizing that no matter what I do they’d be disappointed in me. I wasn’t the son they wanted me to be. You know when you name your child it’s everything you want them to be. My name means ray of light, and I often feel like I’m just this tiny spark of fire that eventually turns into wild fire. Damn, that’s kind of a deep thought to have. Like I said, it’s late this probably won’t make sense in the morning. 

I never apologized for how I acted when dad died. We all know that I went on a bender and refused to go anywhere near anything related to dad and made you and mom clean up not only his mess but my mess. When I finally got my shit together, thanks to you, I decided to take over the farm because I felt like it was the least I could do, and I know that there was some relief from mom in my doing so. I also knew that I couldn’t stay in the same house as her. I don’t think she’s truly ever forgiven me for all the times I embarrassed her. I hope that someday she can. I hope someday that you can. 

Because you’re my best friend. 

I’m very proud of you Ames. You did everything I couldn’t do. I know mom is proud of you. Dad would have been too. He loved you so much. 

It’s nice knowing that whenever I fuck up again I have a guaranteed lawyer to have my back. 

I’m going to end this letter now, it’s already probably too long. I just wanted to let you know that I’m thinking of you, I wish we could hang out more.

Your brother, 

Kiran.

[dempseymagic-a]

Y'all I'm drunk and crying about zach again

[miilenv-archived]

𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐘 𝟐𝟎𝟏𝟖 — 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄'𝐒 𝐏𝐀𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐄, 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐂𝐎.

once she was dressed she dismissed her ladies-in-waiting and made her way to dominique’s rooms, it would make her feel better to dote on someone, to distract herself. her own airheaded ladies flitted around, all wearing identical pitying looks. “ leave the room. ” she didn’t know where the strength in her voice came from, but she felt all the eyes in her room snap onto her, but that wasn’t anything special, it’d been happening for a week now, it would continue to follow after her for years probably. “ i said, LEAVE. ” it seemed to shake them from their reverie and sent all of them flying from the room, leaving mimi and her alone in their black dresses. “ today is the only appropriate day you can stuff your bra with tissues, you don’t want to fumble in a bag. ” she had played it off to everyone as if she wouldn’t need tissues herself, she knew it was a lie. “ you’re wearing the pearls we got you. he always loved when you wore them. ”

@mimidbg​

[taeycngs]

i’ve  come  out  of  my  hibernation  2  say  that  kick  it  is  a  musical  masterpiece  and  i  just  luv  all  nct  members  so  much  nd  have  a  lot  of  feelings  bc  they’re  my  #1  nd  what  got  me  into  kpop  🥺  johnny  said  2  sm  :  y’all  mf’ers  want  me  2  write  songs  for  u  then  imma  write  my  own  damn  lines  since  u  wont  give  me  any  ..  and  i  respect  that  for  him