everything is always my fault
we buy a house in the county...absolutely no cell phone service unless youre in this one little spot on the front porch. the house is small. we couldve done so much better but of course, you rushed this just like youve rushed many many many other things in your life. we are supposed to be looking forward to a future. OUR future and you let people come with us to a house we bought.. yes bought, there is no rental agreement this is a mortgage, a twenty year investment and you wanted roomates?
im supposedly in charge of the interior while you worry about the outside, i had to get rid of so many pieces of furniture that now need replacing because you chose to downsize us so much that we couldnt even keep our nightstands,
am i getting ANY help with that? no. i work a full time job while youre stiill only scheduled to come home for one full day every seven days and youve made the executive decision for us to move an hour from my job. i fill my FJ up every four days which leaves little to no money for me to spend on housewares but i do spend my money on everyone and not just myself. i’m a planner. with people living with us that are outside of our relationship, there will be no spare places for a nursery if the inevitable happens. i’m pissed off about it. but i dont have a right to be pissed off.
we DID NOT buy a house for me to have to think anout anyone elses needs while decorating, or buying food, or anything of that nature, this is supposed to be our place-- for OUR things. your dog ran away today and you literally told me it was my fault because i let her out with some neighbors dog in our yard. i had my computer, and a cup of coffee in my hand when i opened the door to the porch..she ran out and then looked at me as i called her back to the house over six times all while she didnt listen. that is not my fault. earlier today my dog saw some kids she wanted to greet and i spoke one time and told her no, come back over here and guess what? she did. so the problem isnt me letting the dog out, its the dog not listening. but cluttered house even though there are two other adult people here all day who mind you work zero full time jobs mess up the house that some days i come home and clean after two full hours of driving and twelve full hours on the job. i cant deal with this anymore. i dont want to. i shouldnt have to. i really am tired of being yelled at because someone else made poor decisions. it isnt fair. it never has been and it never will be.
