Okay! so true story, right? I first came out when I was 12. I sat next to my mother as we watched the oscars... Billy Bob Thornton had just deeply kissed the woman I had just mentally proclaimed as my "girlfriend" and I felt HOT and JEALOUS. I turned to my mother and said "ma, I think I'm gay." And she gave me a look and her response stunned me into silence. I later retracted my declaration for another 6 years.. however looking back on it what my mother was trying to shield me from was having to explain my new found glory to other people. There were still misconceptions that same sex relationships relied heavily on sex, and to be honest- I wasn't even considering sex at that age. So when I came out, I was in a new school running for Homecoming Queen alongside the young woman I would go on to lose the home coming crown to/ then date/follow to college/and almost marry for 3 years. So now that I'm this mom thing, you'd think 💭I have my identity figured out.. "adult usually do" but what I found myself dealing with was shame of my Queer-dom, afraid to date who I like because of who would mention it. I'm shedding new layers in my Motherhood. Acknowledging my blackness, my queerness and the fact that none of this has changed since I've given birth. Just being at peace with the love that has always flown from my heart. So when I saw this bikini from target.. I bought it with the intention of showing my #mombod some pride and glory as I take great steps in acknowledging a part of me that I could never lose. #Effyourbeautystandards #IBelieveInLove #AlwaysAcceptingAllies #MomBodAppreciationPost #BrujaMa #erynamelism #ImNotACoolMomImAQUEERMom