seen from United Kingdom
seen from Netherlands
seen from Trinidad & Tobago
seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States
seen from Poland
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from Poland
seen from Canada
seen from United Kingdom
seen from Trinidad & Tobago
seen from Chile
seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States
seen from United Kingdom
seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States
seen from Poland
seen from China
Is it weird to send messages to an account that'll never be seen by that person again? #FuckFeelings . . . . . . #oneofthosedays #ilostafriend #likekeysinasofa #likemoneyonabadbet #illbefine #imonthemend #somethingsortalikeyourname #illbealright #butimnottonight #countingallmymistakes #replayingfights #ilostmymind #iknowshedontneedme #idapologize #ifitmightmakeadifference #nothingisblackandwhite https://www.instagram.com/p/BybfmUGHtVF/?igshid=17ex9jdpty5kl
I guess I only distance myself from others, because life has thought me that the only way people can really hurt you is when they’re the closest to you.
Though my heart is in pieces, strangely it is also at peace and that is what scares me the most; what if I go back to sadness every time I forget what it's like to be happy because in an eerie way, it takes an intense amount of turmoil to make you realise what calm is really like. Ya Allah, please help to make sense of this. You’re the only One that can.
My heart constantly crave silence. And I fear one day, it will forget how to speak.
I’ve been in a situations where I thought I would never make it out, but I did Alhamdulillah. I’ve lived through it. I’ve learned from it. I’ve survived. So whatever it is that I am currently going through right now, Allah will get me through that too. Allah swt has purpose for my pain, a reason for my struggles and a reward for my faithfulness.
Ya Allah, only you understand how much I've been hurt. I don't want to carry the pain for another second. I don't want to be a bitter person. But I need your grace and the power of Quran to release my hurting to forgive those who've hurt me. First, I need to experience your forgiveness. You know all the ways I've hurt others, and I'm sorry for my sins. I'm choosing to forgive the way you have forgiven me. Every time the memory comes back, I'll forgive that person again until the pain is gone. Heal my heart with your grace. Ameen.
There are pain that too hurting to speak about and scars too evident to hide from. Some things, you just keep to yourself and some aspect of your personality, you allow people to butcher its from. This is life. Accepting what cannot be changed and not fearing what comes by Allah’s grace.
I know a lot of people say that soon you’ll get a taste of your own, and you’ll be tested the way you tested me. But I don’t want that. I don’t want you to go through this, because I know how much this will break you. Instead, I’ll pray. I’ll pray you never have to experience the kind of pain you put me through; something I hope never, ever happens to anyone. No one deserves that depth of hell. I pray that happiness comes to you in bundles and it stays. I pray that you will never be alone and will be constantly under the watch of the Most Merciful. I pray you find someone you won't have heart to destroy. I pray that somehow you’ll learn, the power you hold on to your actions to be able to break someone. But no matter how much you’ve hurt me, I’ll never wish bad things upon you, ever.
Leaving toxic people isn’t selfish. Taking time for yourself isn’t selfish. Doing what’s best for you isn’t selfish. Self love isn’t selfish.
