I've finally realized/recognized my programming. I'm absolutely in despair and above that, outraged. Our memory holder is in shock and trying desperately to hide everything again, but I refuse to let it go. The entire system is in shock, mostly because I was the one who preserved the implanted narrative, but they mostly had no idea. How do I prevent from forgetting? And how do I get rid of this implanted narrative my programmers put in me? I'm the host, I want my life back. (thealmightysystem)
One can write down what they remember as well as others in the system. Everyone can keep a separate place to write, as well as keep what they wrote in a separate place. This way if something does occur where memories are forgotten there are some documentation.
Recognizing the narrative is implanted and parts of it or all of it is false is the first step. Often what is done is the narrative is used to cover when the abuse occurred. For example: If someone goes on a visit to their grandfather’s house. While there they went to the carnival for the day, fell asleep on the way home and woke up the next morning back at their grandfather’s house. There are things that are true, the person went to their grandfather’s house. The false narrative would be the going to the carnival for the day.
Someone’s entire life can’t be a false narrative. That’s where survivors can become frustrated regarding their memories. It’s complicated by other alters also have lived and experienced life. The thing is, their is an alter who holds the memory of the abuse that occurred.
Using the above example, there will be someone who holds the memory of the abuse of what happened at the carnival. The cover narrative will have issues as well. The narrative will be ‘too perfect.’ For instance, remembering every ride, every food eaten, and detailed to a flaw. Or, it will have too many gaps. So, the person went to the carnival and rode the ferries wheel and ate cotton candy. That’s it. But wait, aren’t you afraid of heights? Flaws.
Another way false narratives happen is when adults 'correct’ the memory of the child. This happens a lot. A child is told, “No, that’s not what happened.” Then they are told by the adult what 'really’ happened. Children don’t tend to question adults and their perspective so the narrative is changed.
Memory work in challenging. False narratives can’t be gotten rid of, as in forgotten, they are like when a program is triggered. One learns how to navigate it, dismantle it, find the truth, and move forward in healing how ever that looks for them.
Oz