Tomorrow morning, I will have the pleasure of driving with my parents and two pairs of my uncle & aunt to San Diego. How special is that, I never had done something of that nature, just I the youngest daughter and my elders and parents together. We will go to a funeral, of a beloved relative who’d passed away to the hands of the Almighty. Forever to rest in peace and no longer live in chronic disease state, unhealthful or severely congested...backed up in blood, arterial issues long term arisen. ALTHOUGH Of course he had a boisterous laugh! One that filled a room so heavily. He was strong and loving. His daughter is my distant cousin who now carries his gold necklace. She is sad, and I cannot wait to see her, her mother, my aunts and cousins and nephews and nieces that too will gather together to be there. I will invite them to my graduation in hopes the next time we come together let it not be in the death of a loved one but in celebration of the accomplishments that will lead to a brighter future...
I need to do some reevaluating. Lately I feel as if my self have been exposed to a bit of SO much of TOO many things...? I’m sure that makes sense if you read it slowly and with feeling. I too cannot wait to let this coming weekend be one of: let me do the things I am entitled to do, that I signed up to do. My responsibilities!!! Crystal Mae goodness gracious get your motherfucking shit together, girl!!! What is it about things that seem somewhat interesting that grab your attention and pull you away from the things you ought to do??? Where is the self control and discipline that I see among others demonstrate???? I need to not be afraid.
