I'll never let my fear of dying (or anything else) threaten my dreams again I don't like to admit that I'm afraid of what my autoimmune condition, igg4 related systemic disease, will do to me. But, the truth is I have often thought complications from it could cut my life short. I usually bury the worry using my faith or denial. However, it took control off me in July 2014 and nearly ruined my dreams. Six months after finishing my memoir, Misdiagnosed: The Search for Dr. House, I was on my way to publication. I'd gotten a foreword from late comedian Bernie Mac's widow Rhonda McCullough. I had reviews from bestselling authors: Wes Moore, Richard Cohen and Marya Hornbacher. I had three magazine reviews: Publisher's Weekly, Kirkus Reviews and IndieReader. Then, I learned that I had to have a second stomach repair operation, a Nissen fundoplication redo. The news rocked me to my core because I'd already endured a six lymphoma related surgical biopsies and numerous other procedures in a two year period. My body was tired and so was my soul. I feared I wouldn't survive. I prayed about what to do with my book. I remember thinking that I should stay the course. But, I ignored my internal voice. I wrote to my agent and cancelled my contract, abandoned the foreword and decided to self-publish. My book got lost in the shuffle of the thousands of other self-published titles. The cover with a stock image didn't get it noticed. And, I didn't have the money or energy to promote it. I'd rushed the book out because I was afraid that if I died no one would ever see it or be helped by my story. Yet, by not giving it the polish and publicity it deserved, I'd failed. I thought I had no choice but to live with my decision to hurry Misdiagnosed to the marketplace. Then, I saw a Publisher's Weekly Booklife contest offering a free book cover redesign. I entered the contest and I was chosen. Now I'm re-releasing the revamped book on April 24, 2017 (Read the rest at NikaBeamon.com) #igg4 #autoimmune disease #chronicillness #chronicpain #memoir #death #fear #BernieMac #RhondaMcCullough #SerendipityLiterary #SheWritesPress #PublishersWeekly #KirkusReviews #IndieReader