#inkwings rambles

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yes hi guess who wants to post this weekend (you are formally invited to my parking lot beatdown because I've been mean and withholding with mi chapters)

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any hope for a Halloween ch 27?

Hello love <3

First: I have received and read all messages before this one and I treasure them. I also wholly intend to respond to them. I hope my response to this short ask doesn't come as an offense to anyone who has taken the time to write me messages with gravity. (I feel these messages, a pang in my chest, and I wish I could Vulcan mind-meld somehow to show you my appreciation)

This ask dredged up something very secret and primal for me. I was married on Halloween. This summer my spouse killed themself. I am still in the process of grieving and it is as hellish as you can imagine. Asker, I know this is not what you wanted to know (also fuck yeah ask all your questions there are no rules and I invite all of them) but I hope it sheds a little light on my absence.

I am sorry. I write but I am having trouble editing. I really, really hope to put out a good Halloween chapter to give a little light on that day.

Hey? If you're reading this thank you.

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Here I am once more to slither out of my awful little cave and lay some 6000-odd words at your feet like a terrible offering. Darlings, in this scenario, you are the long-suffering owner and I'm the scroungy stray cat bringing you carcasses you didn't ask for.

All this to say...update of BMGWMBGG scheduled for tomorrow evening <3

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I am almost entirely certain I'm going to squick people out HARD in chap24

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ok so about my lack of update. I got sidetracked writing about the nightmare horse (!!!!spoiler!!!!) and the other flesh gifts Feyd is going to give Laera. Harkonnen giftgiving traditions are atrocious, I've decided. Also I've re-written chap 21 like three times and I'm pretty sure some of my readers will unionize to beat my ass if I don't post eventually. ~tee hee~

Here, have some random headcanons related to BMGWMBGG because I'm deranged:

the Harkonnen tradition of offering "flesh gifts" to the bride is essentially the manifestation of that one post that's like "my love language is acts of service and all I know how to do is kill"

given that Geidi Prime has to pump groundwater since the planet has no oceans and little rainfall, there are likely thermal pools/natural springs somewhere in the Fortress. They function like bath houses, essentially. Feyd-Rautha visits them frequently.

the Harkonnen tradition of draping their brides in betrothal chains came from the practice of having to physically restrain their wives because uhhhhh they did not often consent to marriage. Now the chains are just brutally pretty jewelry, but in ye olden days Harkonnens would kidnap their brides caveman style

the ceremonial lyggal warpaint is mixed with human blood. often the wearer's

Harkonnen men totally get married half-naked covered in warpaint. How else is the bride supposed to take her blood rite if he's all covered up? :(

Geidi Prime has a renowned rave scene. Party drugs? Evil techno? That's basically Tuesday for the upper classes

Despite keeping appearance of the contrary, Feyd-Rautha is not a hedonist with all pleasures. He holds himself to the standard of a warrior and forces purity of mind and body so that he can feel superior to others. Baby boi deffo has an eating disorder and like six different hangups about eating in front of others. Violence is his chief vice but sex is a close second, so he's not a monk all the time...

Feyd-Rautha thinks it's just so charming that women have a menstrual cycle. oh his partner lifts her skirt? and she's already bleeding? it's like Christmas came twice.

Feyd-Rautha has met Princess Irulan on two occasions prior to Arrakis. He was buck-ass naked during their first meeting (I will not explain) and covered in blood for their second. The Baron offered Feyd as a marriage prospect to the Emperor's daughter both times. "isn't my nephew strong? isn't he capable? wouldn't you like to give him children?" *gestures to the horrible little man covered in blood*

Feyd-Rautha is freaked out by horses. It's the spindly legs...

Feyd-Rautha's favorite food is nutrient paste. I am not joking

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Chapter 19 is a menace, y'all. The scenes are clear in my imagination but I swear I've rewritten this chapter three times over trying to make it *right*. Hoping to post within twelve hours...we'll see how that goes!

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As I embark on my editing process for chapter 20 of "bit my gun with my black-gold gums" let's all just take a minute to reflect on how fuckin chaotic my smut writing process is. I write this shit like a monk. we're talking jane goodall w/ the apes, calmly making bullet points. Also Microsoft Word is convinced I am offending my readers (I can only hope)

Find the story on AO3 here:

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

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Question round (I love these so much)

1. What made you decide to become a writer? (was it always something you knew you wanted to do or did it come to you later on in life.)

2. What was your favourite genre’s growing up? (could be a genre from movies or books)

3. What is your proofreading process like?

4. How do you stay motivated in your writing process?

That’s it for my question round 😂.

ps. Any chance for an update this week? 🙏 ❤️

This is so cute omg, thank you for the questions I love them too! <3333

I didn't really decide to be a writer, it just became a hobby organically in childhood. I wrote my first "story" at age 6 because I was obsessed with R.L. Stine kid's horror stories and the "Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark" series (and at age 8 I got in trouble for bringing my mom's Stephen King books to class LOL). It's always something I've just kind of *done*. I work in an unrelated field to publishing but I write a lot for work, so I think the hobby has served me well outside of stories, too.

Horror!!!! Scifi and fantasy were a close second in a cozy lil tie. In young adulthood I got really into romance which had some uhhhhh interesting interactions with my previous predilections

My proofreading process is chaotic and 100% novice. I write like a demon on crack for the first draft, and then a day or so later I'll sweep through it with a blowtorch and do a hack-job of copy-pasting entire passages into the order I want them. I catch myself switching tenses OFTEN because the tense I imagine stories in is different than the tense I write in (so there are quite a few typos I'll have to fix on the back end when I complete my fics/stories). Also I get "sticky" on certain words. I keep trying to put the word "ameliorate" in damn near everything I write and I have to go back and beat myself with a stick to remove it from appearing 3000 times (I think I may have been successful so far...)

Motivation? I don't know her *cries* This might be an unpopular answer but for me writing is an entirely passive process. My imagination runs laps around my actual writing speed so a lot of it is just me sitting in front of my laptop and being Tortured By Visions until I'm satisfied. This has unfortunately led me to take long hiatuses from stories (RIP Sanguine Witch est. 2018) because if my mind isn't chewing on it, the words don't come.

BONUS: I am trying to update tomorrow but I'm a horrible little gremlin that keeps deleting paragraphs. I appreciate everyone's patience <3