For so long, I've been deeply hurt & traumatized by the heartbreaks I've experienced & the unexpected SA that made me feel worthless. I've shed countless tears, reflecting on all the hardships/ pain life has thrown at me, which left me at my lowest point. Trusting others has been incredibly difficult & I've found comfort in being single to avoid further damage & potential hurt. The heartache, verbal, emotional abuse, eating disorder, insecurities, constant need for reassurance, depression & anxiety have all weighed heavily on me. I’ve distanced myself from the majority of people off & on, for months on end, to heal myself. Some may think I’m pushing them away, but that’s never my intention. It’s just to heal myself within this journey, mentally, emotionally & physically. But now, I've entered a period of renewal these past couple or so months & healing. It has taken a long time, but everyone needs to start somewhere. I needed someone to show me that I am worthy & that I don't need to change to meet others' expectations. I'm embracing this healing era of mine, knowing that it's a progressive journey towards a better, stronger me.