#inner tensions

[vintage-tigre]

[hierodulamantidae]

I keep forgetting that paranoia and distrust are symptoms of bpd. Of course I feel like everyone is secretly plotting to leave me bc they don't wanna start shit. Of course I feel like I can only trust the fictional characters I'm so attached to, because I know they aren't going to hurt me.

Of course. Of course. Of course.

[hierodulamantidae]

Anti therapy not in the sense that I think it never works I just think it won't work for me. Also it's an inherently flawed system where you have to waste so much money trying to find someone who doesn't make you feel worse than you already are. When you're used to keeping yourself from committing in your own way does it really matter what anyone else has to say about it.

This is not medical advice I'm just venting bc i feel like my current therapist is useless. My coping mechanisms bring me no harm.