Missed possibilities
I've seen you for the past two weeks straight everyday. In the hallway, the pantry, elevator even in the midst of people at the mall. I was thinking of why our eyes meet but refuses to smile. Then I started to have an imaginary dream for both of us (not really intimate but as close friends at work) that could make us good friends for real, I mean really... for real. We will have conversations that could make us laugh, agree or even argue at each others insights. Yeah, I did that, creating a possible future for us. And then.. this happened, so sudden. You just went away, left me behind those glass doors that separates us from our personal world. The only place where I could be with you with people we worked with. Where we could meet our eyes even without a smile. That tiny chance I'm holding up faded away just like that. And I realized, it's only me then. But what if I smiled at you that day, what if I asked you "hey, your ------- right.?" Or maybe "hey, good to see you again." Is it possible that our paths will crossed each lines.? I know for sure there is something behind those "meeting-of-the-eyes" thing were in. But life got something that we can't hold up for long, it always have to leave. I'm writing this because my thoughts couldn't contain what my mind is screwing up to and I just have to put it all in words that I know can help me express what was there that must have been said long before everything happened. Anyways, I guessed this can be all good. Thanks for the memories bud! Even if its only on me. 😒