It's 5:34 am and I don't know what words I'm about to leaking on to this page Most likely deep blue tears from all the pain. Not just mine but everyone's. Because you see, People spend years pouring their blood on the pavement and what's worse is we live in a society where it's poured on our homes for us to drowned in The governments telling us we have no other choice but to be what they want us to be, our parents telling us, we have to be what they need us to be. Everyone expecting you to conform to this unideal perfection that's impossible to embody. Be their kind of success or be a bum on the street. But that's a load of crap. They're all wrong. You can be whatever person you want to be. Don't listen to them unless they say, "You know what screw it all and be who you wanna be. " Don't listen, not for one second. Because they will try to make it to easy, when in reality anything worth having, worth being isn't going to be easy. You get to make the choices in your own life and there will always be more then two options, no matter how hard it is to see all them, they are there. You have to look past expectations, what they think is best, what they pretend is best. Question things, give it deep thought, and do what you believe is going to make you happy. Life isn't about doing what you must to survive it's about living and being human. Do what you want to do, be who you want to be, love when there is love to be felt, be mad when there is anger to shouted across the halls of your school, home, or even just in the streets. Cry when tears fill your eyes and feel when there is feelings to be felt. Fuck having regrets and feeling sorry for yourself. These things will just bring you down and make you unhappy. Live for today and look to tomorrow's answers. Don't fret about the future, you'll be fine. And when worst comes to worst, learn to silence those negative thoughts and let the deepest parts of your soul heal you. You can lie to someone's face, you can lie to your own face in the mirror but you can't lie to your heart. Instead trying following it.