It’s finally done! I know I’m gonna find a bunch of mistakes and probably some plot hole when I read it again later, and chaos might ensue, but, for now, I’m okay with it!
I guess I don’t have a lot to say here, most of my notes are in the chapter itself. Took a lot of time, because of course it did... I keep hoping I won’t take this long for the next chapter, but this never seems to happen x(
Anyway, I hope you enjoy it! Thanks for your time and for sticking around!
This is embarrassing. Can’t even remember how long it’s been since I last updated a fic, probably almost a year. I admit I’ve been lazy and unproductive and kind of focused on other things, but, as usual, I’m not dead. I guess I’m a zombie?
So, here’s a double update. I’ve re-written the first chapter of Fondness; the plan was to just adapt it to make it less sucky, but it turned out something completely different. Hopefully it’s better.
And I’ve also updated Dragons. Not sure there’s anything in particular to say about that, except some necessary “plothole-ish” parts are now out of the way, so anything after this will be mostly character interactions and pregnancy stuff and fluff/drama/etc.
Enjoy, feel free to comment/criticize/what have you, and, as always, thank you very much for the attention and for your time! It’s late and I’m tired, so I’ll probably fix potential mess-ups sometime later; I apologize for those in advance.
I remember saying in my last post that it wouldn’t take me too long to post this chapter, but... I kinda got addicted to Yo-Kai Watch (Fleshy Souls for Kyubi power), and ended up postponing both the writting and release of Dubious.
Regardless, there you go! It’s not the most creative; I suppose I lost the “weirdness” I wanted to develop with The Nest (chapter 2), but, still, it’s Alutegra and a little awkward, so there’s that.
Like I said in the author’s notes, Dubious will be the last chapter I’ll upload to Fondness for a while. Not only because I want to focus on a more proper Alutegra story, but because I also want to engage on another creative endeavor (which I hope will benefit my love for the couple).
I’m thinking about eventually releasing the real bad and unfinished stuff I wrote, but I keep changing my mind because I get embarrassed by all the terribleness. If these scraps do get some sort of polishing, though, they’ll be posted, rest assured.
Anyway, stay safe, enjoy this little thing, and I’ll see you (hopefully) soon with something different!
It’s right here: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/11066640/6/Fondness
I wasn’t very creative with this chapter, I’ll admit. I just wanted a way to turn headcanons into something “narrative-y”.
Apologies for making Alucard wimpy. It’s just an idea I had for his reaction concerning the things he cares about. Or rather, the prospect of losing them. You know when Windows pops up that FATAL ERROR blue screen? That’s how I see it.
Yeah, it’s pretty fucking weak, but there you go. Also, I don’t think I’ll take too long (not my usual interval, at least) to post the next chapter.
No, seriously, it does, of no one’s fault but mine.
It’s always the same, really. I go AWOL for God knows how long, spend the entire time involved in other stuff BESIDES writing, and then I suddenly realize I haven’t updated in a long while, and I panic. So, of course, I scramble around and pretty much force myself to sit down and actually write something (because there’s no other way I’ll ever produce anything), so I feel less shitty about being online-useless.
And it hardly ever comes out the way I originally planned.
(Warning: I ramble a lot beyond this point).
I don’t really understand what happens. I have all these chapters somewhat summarized in poor bullet points. Or, at least, I have a vague idea of how the story will go. And then, when I sit down to write it, it just... doesn’t come out that way. Either I drag one particular scene for too long and it becomes the whole chapter, or I suddenly decide to combine two different ideas into one.
Which is what happened with “The Phone Call”.
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My original idea for this chapter was having Alucard call Integra in different, yet always inapropriate situations, to talk about whatever dumb shit he was up to, resulting in her either being embarrassingly entertained/aroused, or facepalmilly annoyed at his intrusions. The chapter was originally divided into four different scenes and would end with a bittersweet conversation, but, as you might have read, only one part survived and became the whole thing.
It also swallowed another idea I had for another chapter, which was to display Integra’s more sadistic/thrill-seeker side (which the vampire likes to probe to embarrass her; it’s canon, anyway).
I guess the chapter didn’t come out TOO bad, but it wasn’t at all what I envisioned. Again. It happened before, and it will probably keep happening. I am not satisfied with the way I write either, so that needs to be fixed.
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I think I know what I have to do. I need to read more. I need to exercise more, and, perhaps, take some... lessons, whatever’s available on the Internet. Tutorials? Advice? My writing, at least to me, feels very stiffled and unnatural, lacking on “life”, so to speak. I can’t explain it, but I don’t like it. I feel like a noob.
I guess I’m just not as enthusiastic about this as I used to be when I wrote all the unpolished drafts and scripts. Rather, it’s thinking about putting in effort to produce something decent that conjures my lazyness and the result is... well, all of this.
ANYWAY, like always, I’ll try to do better next time! There’s still a couple of Alutegra fics I want to see come to life, and there’s a bunch of unfinished crap laying around that could probably use some refinement, so there’s that to look forward to. I can’t, however, focus on one thing at a time, and I actually want more and more to get original things out there, so expect different things in the future.
Hello, hello, everyone! It’s been a while! I apologize for my absence, but lots of stuff happened and I got lazy!
Anyway, here’s what I promised last time we met: the first chapter of a new Alutegra fic, “Dragons”: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13032986/1/Dragons
It’s kind of a weird chapter, but that’s because I was at a loss on how to introduce this new story... So I took a bunch of unfinished, independent texts and tied them together with a singular motif. As you read through, you’ll probably figure out what the story’s about, but if you don’t, well, you’re going to have to wait for chapter 2, hehe.
A new chapter for Fondness was uploaded. Link is right here. [Click]
Also, this will be my last update in a couple (or so) of months. It’s probably not very different from the usual time I take to upload (ouch), but this is kind of an actual, official hiatus. Something came up IRL (nothing serious, really) that demands my full attention, so I won’t be able to write anything until I sort it out.
Hopefully, it will be resolved in two months or so. When I get back, I’ll most likely work on a new chapter for Fondness, rather than of any other sort of creative work.
As far as this new chapter is concerned, it’s my first time writing something like that and it felt kind of weird, I’ll admit. The Alutegra moments weren’t as prominent, but I guess I’m reasonably satisfied with how it came out. It’s really frustrating that I have not been able to come up with quirky behavior for Alucard (or Integra) like I did in the second chapter (The Nest), so I want to work on that. :/
Anyway, I got nothing else to say, so... I’ll see you all (whoever you might be) in a couple of months, hopefully! :D
