until you came over, i swore i'd never do it again (interlude 2)
overpriced brand dress much too short to be decent, glass of a drink that would turn 'enough' to 'too much', a white coffee table as stage to dance the night away, a room full of people, but none of it matters. half lidded eyes open again as first notes of another song blasts through the stereo. two gazes interlock, and the rest of the world vanishes. a silent exchange, a secret shared only by two people, intimate moments that no one else is privy too. 'who sent you, who sent you, who sent you around again' such simple words, yet they unlock precious memories. isn't music magic?
o silly me, o foolish me. i knew nothing about love, but i had foresaken it. too many disappointment, too many tears shed over men, too much pain. i had passed the stage of disliking romance and love; i was completely indifferent to them. i was indifferent to most things in life at that moment.
as directionless as i appeared to be, until that moment, i always had hopes and dreams for he future. even without concrete plans to reach them, their existence is what kept me going forward without fear or regret. but in their absence, the future seemed bleak and everything meaningless. even the idea of bringing happiness to others felt forced. life wasn't blue anymore; it was just bland.
i spent most of my free time laying on my bed, earphones covering my ears to avoid socializing as i built ever expanding walls around my heart. never again, i kept promising myself. but i didn't know my opponent would be a storm, a force of nature that came in the most innocuous of ways; a kakaotalk notifications.
i considered ignoring it, but truth be told, laying down and wallowing in my misery was boring. i needed a distraction, so i reached for my phone and checked the preview of the message.
i wanted a distraction and received a heart attack instead. as if life was playing a prank on me, the lyrics 'who sent you, who sent you, who sent you around' played in my earphones as i reread the words on my screen, being extremely careful to not opening the message itself.
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