So, for your intimidation ask request thing: 😫😥 You seem really, really cool, so I doubt anything that I have to say is worth your time.
😥 - I am very intimidated by you. I wish it wasn’t that way, because you seem cool.
Anon I am not cool. I’m not sure what gave you that idea but I’m like, the total opposite of cool. I talk about my fanfics 24/7 because they’re pretty much the only interesting thing I have going on. I get anxious hat my friends will ditch me as soon as they find someone who’s more interesting, because that’s happened before.
😫 - I admire you from the sidelines because you seem cool and I’m just a dork.
I am, in fact, a total dork, if I do say so myself. Don’t believe me? Let me give you some examples.
I was super obsessed with Star Wars for years. Every ridiculous part of merch that exists I probably own, or at least wanted to own at some point. The stuff I do own includes, but is not limited to: like 30 different cups, four shot glasses (I don’t even drink alcohol, I just thought they looked cool), a handful Christmas ornaments of varying quality, a Star Ward cookbook I’ve used several times, and about 200+ books and like 80 comics I haven’t even read. I spent ages trying to get all of them, including ones that are pretty hard to get by these days, cheaply from eBay. And then I only read a couple, and unfortunately my interest in Star Wars was a little killed by TROS, so now my overall desire to start any of them isn’t very high anymore 😔
I keep. Taking naps on the couch instead of going to bed. I don’t even know why. I just keep going “I could do X for five more minutes” and then I fall asleep. This is why I’m currently awake at 3 am because I then always wake up in the middle of the night.
I’m like, super anxious when it comes to communicating. Which is probably the reason so many asks still sit in my ask box. I keep worrying about having to give the “perfect” answer and then I just… don’t do anything. This is why I take like months to actually answer 90% of my comments, even the ones that made me smile like crazy. Not because there’s anything wrong with the comments, I love them very much and am eternally grateful to everyone that does comment. I’m just really bad at answering those.
I’m sure you’d have stuff to say that’s worth my time! Even though I might sometimes take a bit to answer because of how socially awkward I am 😅
…I had a feeling I intimidate some of y’all and as someone who has been seen a dork loser for like most of her life let me tell you that’s a very confusing concept 😅