#introspectivethought

[kojulawliet]

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[thoughtsofexistential-crisis]

Jobless

So, my irresponsibility has caused me to lose my job. I've been set back, but I don't change my end goal- by November 30th, I will still be on top. I will have a job, at least. I will have a home at least. I have hit rock bottom- for me. I know others who fell further than I, and right now, I can keep holding onto my shovel and digging deeper and deeper or I can throw my shovel to the side and claw my way out. I will not allow myself to keep holding that shovel. I will escape and be responsible, I won't let this drag me down for long. Tomorrow, tomorrow I start over.

The human Will is powerful. With enough Will, you can over come anything. There's a dark part of me that just wants to lose myself in the void of inhebration, so I don't have to think and feel. But I have an unbreakable Will, I won't bend, I don't break. All my life so he been told that I am stubborn, and that that is a bad thing. But I realize now, that it's not bad to be stubborn, it's not bad to be a fighter. It's a sign of strength. My adaptability is my best quality, and it's the only way I know to survive. But without that stubbornness and fight I have in me, I would be unable to adapt.

Anyone who might be going through the same thing I am, never give up in the face of adversity. Nothing is stronger than you, unless you allow it to be.

A phrase I read once, has been coming back to me alot,

"You have no right to Bitch about the cards you are dealt, but you have an obligation to play the hell out of the cards in your hand"

It's a good philosophy.

[wnq-writers]

I have more stories in me than time on Earth to tell them.

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