( PLEASE REBLOG AND SHARE SO TAYLOR CAN SEE!!!) I painted this for you. It now hangs above my bed. I saw you on Halloween night in Tampa, FL, the last U.S. Tour stop for the 1989 tour. It was incredible. I bought bucket list pit tickets. Tickets I never will be able to afford again. I brought the painting and was hoping you’d see it and get it. At the end of the show, your security said that you weren’t accepting any gifts. I knew you’d had some after show parties and I wondered if you were going to have one that night. I wished and wished and wished that you’d have one. I left sad and convinced myself that you weren’t having one. The very next day, I found out that you did have one. I was happy for those people, but so incredible heart broken and down. I felt like I did something wrong. I kept thinking I shouldn’t have bought those tickets, I should have bought less expensive ones. Maybe she would have picked me then?? I should have dressed like her, even though I’m so far from it. So, I became a recluse and shied away so I wouldn’t have to feel so insanely jealous and invisible at the same time. We’re not that far in age. Ever since that moment in the car sitting in front of the football field at a Friday night high school game when I heard your voice croon the first words in the chorus of Tim McGraw, you’ve been the best friend I’ve never met. You’ve always known exactly what to say and always when I need it. I truly believe you’re an incredible person and I’ll defend you til the end. I will always tell people about you and will definitely tell my children your name and all the incredible things you’ve done. I’m in my last semester of culinary school for my baking and pastry degree. The very last class I’m in we’re doing show pieces with a theme we pick ourselves. I chose you!! . I’ve taken my test and my last practical! I’ve passed!!!! I just wanted you to see my work! At the end of the day, I still want to meet you and hope it happens. I just want to hug you, pull back, and talk about baking. I want to talk about something you’re excited to try but have never done and set a date to bake together. I can’t wait to see you on August 14 in TAMPA with my friend Janay were in SECTION K, ROW 41, SEATS 19-20. Then I get to see you again in September, on the 22nd at the NEW ORLEANS show. I’m attending with my friends Jenny and Darcy. We’re in SECTION A, ROW 24, SEATS 6-8! I want.. NO NEED to make this hug and meet and baking talk happen and maybe.. just maybe finally give you that painting I’ve come to love!! @taylorswift @taylornation