*phone rings* me: "Hello?" voice: "7 days" *click*
Sadly, no, I didn’t see “the tape”. The tape that after you watch it, you get a phone call saying you are going to die in 7 days.
Because 1. That was a fictitious movie (probably) and 2. we don’t use “tapes” anymore.
We gots Blu-rays and DVD and such a thing as “click to download”.
But in all seriousness, the reason I’m using this title “7 days” is because that’s when I start school.
Less, actually… if you start counting by how many hours and minutes and seconds remain.
Maybe if I had a regular sleeping pattern, days wouldn’t go by so fast.
I’m going to be speechless when teachers next week start asking me “so, Charlie, what did YOU do during your winter vacation?”
Some students probably did amazing things, like visit Mexico on December 21, or freefall from space.
I… well, I didn’t do anything during my, like, MONTH of break*
*I go to a “private” school**, so I think I have a longer break than you. Also, interesting you mention “private”, since it’s actually SO private that people have been confusing it for “UCSF” and “SF State” and “City College”(which I thought would shut down) but didn’t -SURPRISINGLY- because I wouldn’t be caught dead there and neither would people who have good to great grades. That’s why everyone is at like Berkeley and Davis and other “elite” schools. I’m not saying there’s anything WRONG with going to city, but if you have good grades, and your parents can say “ok I can probably afford tuition” then why CityCollege? Also, I don’t want to step foot in there because there are bound to be like a giant latino population because they can’t “afford” Davis and USF (I am latino, and going to CityCollege would be like confirming some sort of stereotype I have in my mind). Also, I would probably see a lot of delinquents there (IDK why I am comparing it to “1950’s leather jacket/ hipster detention” but so be it)….
**And the reason I put “private” in quotes is because it’s starting to become more “public” because they (USF’s PR team) has created bus ads and billboards demonstrating their college. Like “hey come on by and study at USF. We created social connections like 2,000 years before Mark Zuckerberg was born. We have separated the word “evil” from “genius” since 1855 (or is it 1885?). Sharp minds trump sharp elbows”. - Those are ACTUAL slogans from their ads. No TV ads yet, just bus and banners. I think it’s cause this school used to be like very “hushity hush” and now they want recognition for NOT being like SF State or UCSF. For being “nerdy” and apparently “hipsters” because that’s most of what I remember seeing during Orientation when we all went to the gym and it was the first time I talked to Michelle Tran a couple of months after she blocked me after I was apparently “annoying her”. And my attempts to apologize to her***. Mostly just hipsters, nerds, and a giant concentration of “party” people. You know the kind, so I won’t go into detail. But seriously, I thought going to a “private” college would be one filled with a higher class “snooty/ lets all have a get together on my father’s yacht har har har”. But no, it seems the only nerds I seem to see are the ones that I’m in the “English” department with. And like NO ONE talks there. I was the first and probably the ONLY person who started to talk on the “English Dept” page. Then again, I’m as shy as them cause I don’t think I’ve ever said this many words in ONE sitting or to anyone who will tolerate my nerdy ass. And I’m not even DONE yet.
***I remember the last time Michelle and I talked. May 30. We started talking around like March because we were both excited about going to college. We commented SO MUCH on each other’s statuses on the USF page (NOT the English Dept page because she majors in Chem/Biochem last I heard)… we might as well be friends. We hit it off immediately, since we are both nerds in a sense (both like Star Wars, Mythbusters, both into the whole “futurist/ tech” craze) and IDK… she’s the only girl who would even talk to me on a daily basis and who was in the same timezone (and didn’t have to say “oh I have a boyfriend JUST SO YOU KNOW in case you were trying to flirt”). She was also on a MythBusters episode, apparently, as one of the kids who was holding the mirrors on the Archimedes myth thing. So that was kinda cool. Everything was great, and I couldn’t wait to meet her during Orientation, and then she blocked me. Because she couldn’t tolerate the whole “oh let’s date” thing. I was obviously kidding, and I told her that when I met her. I tried explaining to her that “we could try if you really wanted and see what happens”. I want to be her friend, and when I was done with my attempt to say “sorry for offending you” all she said was “don’t worry about it”. I asked to be unblocked on Facebook. Same reply. I want to be her friend again. She was like the only person who I actually liked sharing interests with and enjoyed talking to. But she doesn’t reply to any messages I send her on Twitter or on Tumblr, and I barely see her walking around campus anymore. So IDK. I’m afraid I lost her.
WHICH BRINGS US BACK TO THE ORIGINAL STORY
All I’ve done during vacation is mourn the loss of all the friends that I lost, from Lisa and Michelle to the members of ACV. No one has died or committed suicide, but it feels like they have.
I have no one to talk to anymore. Everyone is gone, and being the shy “stumble upon his own words” idiot that I am, I can’t even give a proper “I’m sorry” (don’t like eye contact, remember?)
So what I did during my vacation is:
-remember all the people who no longer speak to me, including all the HS friends who told me to “make new friends in college”
-update my MacBook Air to current software
-join Tumblr and rant about how my life is depressed and I have yet to make a single “friend” because I keep losing them for “accidentally being an inconsiderate ass” and “joking during serious moments”
-Subscribe to Lisa and a girl from the English Dept named Shelby on YouTube. Because if I can’t talk, might as well hear them talk, right? And pretend they are talking directly to me, like I’m their friend to share secrets with. And experience them in HD videos on a site that also shows where cats play pianos and people get kicked in the balls.
-Buy expensive ass textbooks that I only need for only ONE semester
-Haven’t even finished “2030” yet, nor catch up to the “Nerdist Podcast” yet.
-Sleep. A lot. Cause I have nothing to do now.
I have no one left who will talk to me. They say ”no it’s fine”
… but in reality, they don’t want anything to do with me anymore.
The only thing that I can look even MILDLY forward to is being in an Astronomy class.
And I finally signed up for that “Intro to Teaching” class I wanted to do.
Cause I keep SAYING I want to be a teacher, but I’m always too lazy to write 3 essays to submit to the DualDegree people and sign up for a “test run at being a teacher to see if that’s what you want”
The last thing, not the first thing.
I really don’t want to write 3 essays about what has inspired me to be a teacher. I already turned an essay like that to the CommonApp people to give to you when I was applying to go here. (Didn’t chose UC because you have to write 2 essays)
Can’t you retrieve it from them?
I am locked out of the system because I’m already in college.
Also, I forgot like half of it. But if it was good enough to get me THIS far, I don’t understand why you USF people can’t pull it up and send it to the Dual Degree people to have me enrolled to have a teaching degree in 5 years.
And I’m too lazy to write it all AGAIN.
But apparently not lazy enough to come back and write a giant story with more “off topic” notations than JRR Tolkien’s work.
(I’ve never read any of it, but it’s what I hear. All his footnotes is the reason why “The Hobbit” is like 3 hours and 3 movies long)
