#irritablity

[awbrainno]

Symptom of depression: Irritability.

Symptom of mania: Irritability.

So, I know I'm pissy as all hell. Other than that, no idea.

[squeakygirl]

Really hoping we get a good thunderstorm tonight because:

1) I like watching/listening to them

2) Our grass and plants could probably do with a good amount of water

3) The heat and humidity is making me so irritable right now I want it to go away

[wrathofstylepoints]

Help me out

I really enjoy helping people. I'm not sure if its mainly to do with distracting myself from my own problems, or just because helping people just makes me feel good in general. Its nice to look at someone positively improve their life, or change a dangerous decision they were going to make purely because of your words, and your influence. Does that make me a selfish person? I suppose its more like a mutually beneficial thing.

I know exactly what to do to fix a person. I know exactly what they should do, how they should do it, and when. I even entirely convince the person that i am right, and they know it. They then have the tools to fix their problem. Unfortunately, for some either crippling emotional connection, a overinflated sense of romanticised morality, or the fact that they've defined themselves around the problem that's driving them mad (three things that i am guilty of, and have been for most of my life), they do not use these tools. I've then used all my knowledge and power to fix them, but am rendered completely useless by the fact that they refuse to help themselves.

Not everyone does this. There are people who do take my advice, and do genuinely feel much better about everything thanks to it, but the who don't serve as a constant reminder that i can not influence people as much as i'd hope; that ultimately people can just choose to ignore my entire existence. I extend this explanation to the state of the world today, we know how to fix most things, but people refuse to, because of their attachments to the broken system we so rigidly enforce. 

There is, therefore, only one way to assure that someone will listen to and follow out your point as you know is best for them, and that is by threatening them with their lives. Granted, there are some people (myself included) that wouldn't take this threat as negatively as others - but for those that this system matters so much to, the threat is enough. When i say this even i look back at it and think i must be mad, but i cant argue with my logic, and you cant argue with a bullet.