he had to be with the ravens but now he’ll get out of bed with a genuine smile on his face
he is still hesitant when it comes to the trojans, but they all try and coax him out of his shell, but let him be when he needs to be
he listens to punk music thanks to renee (i read this somewhere n i love it?) but when he’s alone he prefers soft music, something like select songs from the cranberries or bon iver
his bed is also covered with masses of duvet and pillow and he just sinks like a feather into it
i dont know where i was going with this
jean is okay with things being loud, but if theres one thing he can’t stand is yelling
sometimes there is a fine line between excited yelling and angry yelling
especially with jeremy’s voice, as it is lower than alvarez and laila
and when jean hears yelling he will freeze and his eyes will glaze over as he recedes into himself
the trojans had just won a game and jeremy came running over to jean
alvarez and laila were hanging onto each other and cheering whilst making rounds with everyone else on the court
jeremy was chanting and he clapped a hand down on jean’s shoulder with his fist in the air
jean doesn’t respond well to sudden touch either
jean receded away from jeremy and didn’t say anything and jeremy began profusely apologising
most people think it was jeremy who jean first became comfortable with physically but it was actually alvarez
alvarez woke up extremely early
unnaturally so, like that women would be up to see the sunrise every morning
jean loved the sunrise
he’d often wake up from skittish dreams, and the room would be dark
everything would look smaller and for a moment he’d think he’d be back with the ravens
the sunrise would then come in through the gaps in the curtain
jeremy snored a lot too, and even through walls this would comfort jean
when his thoughts left him agitated he use to walk laps of the apartment
one day he woke earlier and found his way to the roof and watch the sunrise
and although he didn’t open up to alvarez, she would just let him talk about anything
and one morning alvarez came back from the night in the town with laila
and went up to the roof
without thinking she jumped onto jean’s back to greet him
but the roof had become a safehaven for jean after bad nights
and although he jumped about a foot in the air, he just laughed
and when he finished laughing, he just smiled whilst alvarez finished laughing
it still took a while before jean was okay with the others
but now jeremy won’t hesitate in celebrating with jean
and when tired jean will become clingy for touch
he likes to just sit close enough to others to feel their warmth
or he’ll lace his fingers through jeremy’s
he has also taken comfort into plaiting laila’s hair
no one knows how he learnt to plait but he’s a natural
i just really love jean okay, he is strong and fierce but soft and needs to be protected at all costs
I saw some other people saying they rp as Illi or they dream they're her. I'm a feminine GWay Factive (she/any, genderfucked tgirl) so I'm also basically Illi. But with my own life and memories.
