chest pains
⋆ .* now playing - chest pain (i love) by malcolm todd
Isaacwhy is a man that yearns, so here are my thoughts on that. :)
• absolutely puts on malcolm todd, frank ocean, or brent faiyaz and stares at the ceiling trying to imagine how it'd feel if you were laying on his chest
• yearns, do you hear me? Mr. Darcy levels of it, he'll ruffle your hair to piss you off and then stare at his hand in the bathroom because he's genuinely considering not washing it after touching you
• he'll watch you interact with the other boys and feel an ache deep in his chest because he wishes you were smiling at him and laughing at him and listening to him
• when you do talk to him, he watches you like a man born deaf just given the ability to hear. leaning in, eyes fixed on your lips and memorizing the way they move around your words, eyes wide and perking up when you giggle
• occasionally has to hold his breath when you walk by him because your perfume and laundry detergent and the other smell that's so you he can't place it makes him dizzy and he physically has to fight the urge to grab you up and inhale as much of it as he can
• when you're texting he keeps his phone in his hand for hours, scrolling through your conversations over and over as he waits for your next reply, typing one up and hitting send not even ten seconds after you
• back to the first point, will tell the boys not to bother him while he edits (which is a little odd bc has hasn't recorded in a few days but they agree) and will put on a playlist he has made just for you to stalk your socials and imagine a life with you
• how he'd ask you to be his, the dates he'd take you on, the ways he'd take care of you and provide for you, the desire making him so dizzy he drops his head into his hands with a groan as he tries not to feel like a psychopath
• he wants you in the deepest sense of the word, mostly in the affectionate and devoted ways, but he has shamefully had to step away to splash cold water on his face or put on looser joggers when you've shown up wearing a certain top or particular pair of shorts (he's not a creep, he's a guy!! you're extremely attractive, who wouldn't get turned on looking at you?)
• on movie nights with the guys you've fallen asleep leaning against him more than once and let me tell you, you'd think he were guarding a weapon of mass destruction. stays so still he barely breathes, shooting daggers at any of the Group if they laugh or talk too loudly, kicking Tanner until he movesto the floor because he's fidgeting too much
• totally accidentally wraps both his arms around you, giving in and pulling you to be on him chest, nearly exploding and melting as you nuzzle closer to him in your sleep
• walks around on a high for weeks just remembering the way he could feel your heartbeat against his chest, your soft breaths fanning across his collarbones, the overwhelming sense of protection he felt as he held you. dreams of that day more than once and can barely think straight when he wakes up
• overall, he's just very normal about you and his desire to have you and make you his and take care of you. :)
ok guys !! the second part of the other blurb was killing my motivation so it's on the back burner, pls forgive me and have this as compensation :') lmk what other things you'd like to see like this!! ⋆ .*











