#issuessssss

[botperduo]

it starts with comm and lots of n and ts

[glockatchu]

I love airports so much. I love the idea of getting tf away

[goodeveningmistermouse]

my mother makes me super self-conscious

because of our history and all the things she’s said to me over the years, though i’m working on forgiving her, they stick with me. so when i’m with her, i feel completely uncomfortable with how i dress, what my hair looks like, how she perceives me. this time that she’s visiting, though i feel self-conscious, i’m making myself wear what i would normally wear and not change for her. there’s no need to. she’s working on accepting me as i am and i’m working on being comfortable being myself around her. 

[diamondssleuth]

Anyone else who uses Firefox having trouble with DeviantArt?  I am, as of now, pissed off.

[neon--medusa]

I ate like 1/4 of my ratatouille/lasagna clusterfuck and I'm STUFFED

I mean yeah, it was made of organic tomato sauce, yellow squash, zucchini, and mushrooms, with some mozzarella, parmesan, and skim-milk ricotta layered in...butttttttttt I still feel gross/guilty. wtf. This is not how I want to feel.

[andnothingbutthetruth]

Last play related thing BEFORE the cast list goes out...

I'm scared to get cast as Kim.

I seriously doubt it'll happen and I know if it does happen, people will be mad and I won't know what to do with myself.

If I get any part that's anywhere near being a 'big' part, people will be mad.

Apparently, high schoolers have been talking about how I don't really have a good attitude? They're saying that because I always tried to explain myself when I got corrections which I did on instinct but I think if people are saying that they don't really know me. I really, really try to get along with everyone but at play, I feel so out of my element. Everyone is either older than me or more talented than me or something and I feel intimidated by them and lately I've just tried to shut up and not say anything in their presence unless I have to. 

 I'm just really stressed and I'm really nervous towards how this show will turn out. 

[pekanie-blog]

Issues, personal, don't care if it's out there.

Just Venting to the Internet!

So far I don't have many friends, and I am loosing my best friend. She's got a man and a job and basically we're like growing a part, but I know we are still there for each other no matter how far we'll be or close by. I'm just saying I don't see her much anymore.. 

My family, my parents are always expecting great things from me but I tend to fail them every time. We're Asian and they are strict on my education especially. I'm not the perfect daughter, I'm the rebel, the black sheep, the loner with the gray clouds above my head. I'm not normal to them since I was a kid. I see, smell, sense, hear, feel paranormal shit and that's how it made my sisters not want me around so i play by myself or neighborhood friends because they didn't know how I was. I went to the temple a lot to get blessed. I'm not that sensitive anymore, but it still happens. My family, i love them but I wish we were a little closer and I feel its so late to get close to them because their all married with kids or turning old.. At least I have them now. 

School, that's the problem I hate school! I always have, I know I'm capable of passing and doing well because I have always been good in math and made it to honors and stuff since I was in elementary. When high school came, I became fucking lazyy and hating everything because of issues. I get in trouble by my parents everywhere and everything I been doing. I play basketball to get away from home and I get in trouble anyways from doing school activities. I joined clubs to get away, and I get in trouble for doing community services and I eventually hated math because of a teacher I had. I just turned unmotivated, and didn't have the drive for school. High School was easy and I left being 1 of the top 10's in my whole school, and trust me my High School was ghetto as fuck! people being stabbed with knifes, yes it went that crazy. I hated my high school. I didn't leave with good memories, just worst ones. Matter of fact I don't even knowww where my yearbook is and I really don't care. 

Relationships? I only had two past boyfriends, I don't count one because of how a douchebag that thing was. you can imagine all the things a guy shouldn't do, he was. I'm cool with my first ex tho, we've been together for 3 years so we should be cool i guess. But i dont have him as a friend! I don't feel like i should be friends with my ex's or even fucking close to them, like they don't need to know my business or how me and my current relationship is at the moment. I'm just okay with him. But yes it took 3 years after we broke up to be, okayy. I love who I am with now and hopefully forever and beyond even if death do us a part. I just now feel like things might end sooner because of how our attitudes and differences of opinions we have. We're completely opposites but somehow the strangest things we have in common made us strong. But I am hearing how nobody wants to hear what their significant other say. They hurt a lot and today, August 26, 2011 I don't think i have ever cried so many drops of tears in my life. It's sad how we started and how things are in the middle, making the end closer than ever. 

I'm typing with swelled up eyes that is about to shut on me. 

Dreams I have always wanted for myself: save a lot of money so I can Travel to every continent to the most greatest places on the planet. 

Oh and I am glad to say I unfollowed someone because that person was annoying and loved correcting my shit when i post them. I don't need anyone to correct me, I'm just expressing my feelings not going to go back and see what makes sense of not or if i spelled certain words right or not. i dont fucking care!!