It is suck to live in dillema. It is suck to live with vengeance but at the same time, you feel sorry for them. You feel sorry for the people who hurt you before without any reason. You know you can hurt them too, you can pay 'em too with what they did to you. But, your heart... It just can't. It is feel like the heart whispered to you, "don't do the same thing like what they did to you".. "help them"... "pity them"... You broken inside yet the heart still asked you to be kind, to feel sorry for them, to be more sympathy. And just like that, you getting broke and broke, torn and torn into pieces because you have no choice except forced to be kind.
It is suck to have more empathy than hatred. Not because vegeance is a good thing and not because empathy is suck. It is just that you do not have chance to tell them, their action was cruel. You don't have a chance to express your feeling. I think it is unfair but still I can do nothing. Suck feeling! Suck life!