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Beverly x Female! Reader
Summary- Beverly has a flashback to her most treasured time.
Warnings- Homophobia, Reader has cancer.
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It’s been 1 year since Y/N died. It’s been better since I joined the losers club, but Its still not the same. Every time I go to the quarry I think of her.
(Flashback to 1 year ago)
Me and Y/N have been swimming in the quarry for a bit. Hours feel like seconds when I’m with her.
“Hey Bev?..” I hear Y/N whisper, she is so close to me right now. I can see every detail of her face, I wish I could stare at her every morning and every night, engraving her features into my mind.
“Yeah Y/N?”
She has a small smile on her face, that smile only means one thing.
“Do.. you wanna practice again? just quickly of course”
Me and her have been practicing kissing eachother. Y/N came up with the idea, saying she didn’t wanna be a “newbie” at relationships.
“Uhm.. yeah sure..” I reply dumbly, why am I acting nervous? this is just my best friend, who’s trusting me. I should act more confident.. but I can’t stop this feeling in my heart. It’s a feeling of excitement and nervousness..
She comes in closer and closes her eyes, I do the same as our lips meet softly. I feel her move her body to me and hugs my waist, I do the same and let out a satisfied sigh. She immediately stops and gives me a cheeky smirk.
“Woah Bev, didn’t know you were so into this” I feel a blush rush into my cheeks.
“N-no I was just getting comfy in the water.. nothing to do with you” I said quickly. She let out the most angelic laugh, obviously seeing through my bull.
“You know.. you don’t have to act like you don’t have feelings for me Bev.. I do too. But we can’t. Not here. Not now. You know that”
wait what.
“Wait.. you like me?” I say, brushing my hair behind my ear. She looks at me in a deadpanned manner. “Yeah of course dumby.. She caresses my cheek softly, her eyes looking into mine before she lets go and looks away.
“We.. can’t though. Not in Derry at least. We wouldn’t survive 5 minutes” I sigh and nod my head. Derry wouldn’t be so accepting of us, we better off living somewhere rural. Where no one can disturb us, I fantasise.
Y/N swims to the shore and lets out a loud cough. I get out and go get our towels. “Is your sickness getting any better?..” I ask, putting her towel around her shoulders.
“No… not yet. But the doctor said i’ll be better any day now” I sigh and sit next to Y/N on the shore. Staring at the water as it ripples and waves undisturbed. Any other universe, I would be able to spend my days with Y/N, just the two of us.
“So.. the practise thing was just an excuse to kiss me huh?” I ask, smirking at her. She blushed and huddled the towel closer to her. “No.. maybe shut up.” I laughed loudly, a warm feeling of happiness sinking into my stomach.
I’ll never forget this, even when i’m old and withered. This feeling I get when i’m with her.
(Present Day)
“Bev?… Beverly” Bills voice snapped me out my daydream. I look at him as he gives me an expected look as everyone had already jumped into the water below. “Are you o-okay?”
I sigh and look away from his gaze, I wouldn’t tell him or the others about Y/N. Her memory felt dear and possessive to me. Telling them about her felt like letting her go, admitting that she’s gone and that is all she is. An memory.
“Sorry Bill.. just thinking i’ll be join you guys later” He nodded and jumped over the cliff, leaving me to my thoughts. I hear the Losers Club having fun down in the water, I should join.. but I still don’t feel right. She would be here, she should be. I won’t forget my time with her, neither my feelings.