Sorry, I had to
I don't usually rant but fucking whatever right now.
This is just because I need to say something. I don't know if I care who sees it.
I sort of had this realization that I'm really alone right now and that no one in my family whom I've come out believes I'm really a homosexual. My sister just made me feel like some idiot and told me that I'm not a lesbian. She claims none of my friends are actually homosexuals or bisexuals or pansexuals. We're just doing all of this to be cool or be like one another. The whole time I was so angry. I was the first of all of my friends to come out and during that time my friends were already thinking about the fact that they were too. I do have a lot of friends that aren't straight but I have a lot of friends who are straight too. I'm really tired of it. My mom made me go talk to her friends about it when I came out because I apparently totally wasn't and just. It's like everyone is against me and there's no way out. My sister seemed like my biggest supporter at the time and it's just so shitty right now. I don't even want to try anymore. I don't want to live I don't want to do anything. I just kind of want to mope. I never thought about the extent of how much support I don't have and now it's just smacking me right in the face.