Gratefulness Part 2
Contains mature content.
They both knew it wasn’t healthy. they just couldn’t leave each other for a minute. When her mother left, they sat on the living room floor, Ray playing with her daughter, Belle, and him watching them. They sat there for hours but felt like minutes to them. The only thing that could be heard was their daughter’s squeals. Ray was hungry but she had no appetite. He was thirsty but didn’t want to get up and leave them. He was scared that if he leaves they’d be gone.
Belle soon laid on her side as she stared at her parents. Ray also sliding down on her side facing her daughter. Itachi leaned back to the couch, unable to tear his gaze away. Belle started dozing off and soon she was asleep. Itachi picked belle and looked at his wife.
“Let’s go upstairs and get some sleep” he said. His voice was hoarse. It was an excuse. He didn’t want to sleep. How could he? She might slip away again. He just wanted her beside him to make sure she never slips away again. To be with her.
They tucked belle in her crib and soon went to their room. She stepped inside first, him following behind. She heard him close the door. She felt nervous. She wasn’t afraid of him or anything that’s for sure, she was just scared that she’ll fall apart again. She felt his arms on her waist hugging her tightly to his chest. She leaned back into him, he was as warm as ever. She was always cold, it never bothered her but she felt like she was the bad side of the relationship and he was the good side. He was the sun to her and she was the moon to him.
Yin and yang.
She turned to him and cupped his face. He forgot how much he loved those cold hands holding his face. It felt like a cold breeze on a hot summer evening. He pressed his forehead against hers. No words were needed. They both started swaying softly. They always did this when they hug. It felt calming for both of them.
“Do you want to take a bath?” He softly whispered. She kissed him. No. Not now. He pressed his lips harder into hers. He bit, pulled, and licked her lips. He wanted to feel every inch of her. It felt like their wedding day. It was their first time. They both agreed to have their first time on their wedding day. They did not regret it. They wanted each other so much and when they finally had the chance to be one, they did not hold back. And it felt the same now.
He kissed her jaw, going down her neck and chest area. She pulled at his hair. He stopped for a second. He wanted this for sure and he knew she wanted it as well, but was she ready? She just left the hospital after all. She might be hurt somewhere. She looked down at him and instantly knew what he was thinking about.
“I’m fine.”
“How can you be so sure?”
“It’s my body, I’ll know if i don’t feel good”
“I’m just scared that I’ll harm you in any way”
“I’ll tell you if you do. Please. I want to feel something other than this hollowness inside me. Make me feel alive again. I want this feeling to go away. Please.” She did what she was avoiding. She cried. She couldn’t stop herself, she felt so empty she wanted to feel something.
Itachi didn’t say anything. He just picked her up and carried her to their bed.
“I promise you, I’ll never make you feel like this again. I promise.” He whispered in her ear lovingly after taking off his shirt. She looked up at him and remembered how he used to be. He was always pale but he looked paler to her now. His body was built and would always show it off around her just to tease her, but now there were no muscles. Just skin and bones. Did he even eat? She traced the bags under his eyes, slowly down to his chest, stopping at his shown ribs for a moment, then down to hem of his sweatpants.
After minutes of making out, they were undressed. Hot bodies pressed against each other but they weren’t connected yet. He was rubbing her slowly and she was trying not to reach her climax. She wrapped her cold fingers around his shaft and started stroking it slightly. She heard him hiss when she touched him. He was always sensitive and when she touched him with her cold hands he’d loose control. And that’s exactly what happened. He pinned her hands above her head and stared at her eyes while slowly entering her. She tried holding eye contact but couldn’t help closing her eyes as she felt pure pleasure.
“You know what to do baby” He panted as he started sliding in and out of her. She fluttered her eyes open and stared at him. He always liked eye contact during their intimate moments. When she asks why he likes it that much he’d say that the eyes hold all the emotions and that he loves to share that emotion with her.
She pulled at his hair. Scratched his back. Bit his shoulder. Pulled him closer by her legs. She felt so overwhelmed. She let out a shaky breath. Then a moan. A louder one. She gripped his neck. He moved faster. He knew she was close, he was too.She arched her back and was about to scream but she quickly reacted by covering her mouth with her hand. She stared into his eyes. She felt him twitch after she came and soon he released inside her.
He cleaned her up by a wet towel then laid down beside her and pulled her to his chest.
No words were spoken.
They just hoped sleep would consume them soon.